RRR... it's not fair.... i hate being fifteen. it's so ******** hard with parents.
i know i was wrong with rageing on my parents when they 3 times gave me the oppurtunity to speak but i just jumped on the fact becuase i wanted to say what i had to say cause it was important and now i can't even remeber why it was important.... i know it was something to do with my dad's perspective on the law and stuff.... and trying to show him him sometihng i thought of and they wouldn't be quiet yes they said they gave me the floor ((soo to speak)) but i had to wait till it's silen before i speak i do that so people hear me fully and i jumped down them raging cause i was fristrated and all i get is ******** trouble when they are just as bad and if not worse at times.... and i know i don't let things go and it takes so long and frustrating long time to get me to let go..... i feel bad and awful to those who i've done it and not really relized it.... another thing i wish to just vanish so that doesn't happen..... and i hate that i have such a different persepective of what they think on certain things like back talking when they say i do i don't see as it is i think of it as something different... and it gets me into trouble..... i don't know i just want to go away far far away from anyone.. i just cause a stir and most of the time it's bad if not all the time....-sighs-
i just think differently see things differently on certain things... then most or other people do ..... i just don't want to be such a frustration or making people insaine cause of my bad habits....
i just wish my parents get that some things i do are not what they think or see.... that they say don't judge a book by it's cover well if my cover maybe showing what they say i think or feel well then they shouldn't judge cause usually thats not the case......... but i better go cause if my mom sees me on now and not turning it off she's gonna get mad and most likely ground me or yell at me some more..... i don't want to be yelled at any more tonight.....
night
 Rikku42 · Sun Nov 13, 2005 @ 11:05am · 0 Comments |
