today was a good day... mom got mad at me but she did have the right to.
lunch we set up most of my mighty mights..... i didn't mind i rather get them to use then not.
though half of the lunch hour if not 15 minutes left of it i just felt so lonely and sad not just for eli but that i wasn't with my teddy right now. i really miss him and the fact that seeing james and annie so lovey dovey makes me miss him more, i can pratacly look at anything and it reminds me of him i think everything reminds me of my tedddy, which makes me miss him more. i try distracting myself but i can't do it i don't want to stop thinking about him. some times i'm able to and all and i have a happy moment but i just want to think of my teddy weither or not i feel lonely with out him. i love him so much and it's not fair that we live a distance away and that i can't see him every day. tears filled my eyes because i miss him so much, and i was even more sad when he never came online today, he didn't come online on his usuall time that he does come on. so i waited to the second regular time for weekends and he still never came on. i just pray nothing bad happened to him and it was just that he was out or grounded or kicked off for some reason. but i just don't want to wait till tomarrow or sunday night to talk to my teddy it's to far away and it's difficult for me to be patient, but i need to be patient.
and the songs i was listening to was helping me either T___T
-heart skips a beat- yay-smiles a lil and a says in a small voice- my teddy is on -is happier now-
 Rikku42 · Sat Nov 05, 2005 @ 08:49am · 0 Comments |
