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the hopes and dreams of a girl at four -
to find the prince that will steal her heart,
care for her,
love her eternally.
i hoped for my prince and knew he would always care.
the dreams of a teen -
at the age of thirteen -
still the same -
a prince to give me his name.
and there he was.
shining in the sun - starting a fire in my soul
the hurts of a teen -
depression, confusion, hysteria.
hormones, friends, lack-of, school, work, love-
a balancing act of epic porportions.
burned out and lost, i thought the love was lost -
i cut the ties,
said my goodbyes,
now he's gone -
happy and free
i thought i would be the same -
still wanted a prince's name -
another found me in my pain -
picked me up, dusted me off, kissed me gently, and tore me apart -
betrayed me for another - i do not hate her.
i only wish i could've seen this coming.
now i am lower, colder, darker than ever.
it all seems pointless
i want release
i want the bonds of love to be sawed, severed, broken
i want the pain to leave
i want to be rid of this world, and it to be rid of me