I'm so sad......I feel sick to my stomach, I've lost my appetite today, (thats just great rolleyes ) and the only thing keeping me sane is my daydreams -__- I don't know what to do..I guess I'm starting to slip over the edge again like I did a long time ago. I just wish kuromi saw my journal entries from 3 months ago when he was gone.. there still on the first archive page, I think...I just so wish he saw them a few days ago..oh well...if only.... now I don't know what to do.. he says I'll find someone but I can't believe that no matter how hard I try. everywhere I look its just nothing nothing nothing..online,in real life,..nothing. I don't think I'll ever find the same kind of person either..I just wish this never happened..he doesn't understand how much I like him.... maybe he does...I don't know...,but obviously that other girl is better than me. he knows I've liked him for a long time and then he says I'm not right for him so I stop trying for a tiny bit then I try again and then hes basically like, ooops to late! I already found someone! stare I found that to be sort of annoying. oh well I hope hes happy cause I never will be again.
I'll probably be contemplating hurting myself for a while. (cutting) sorry but if I'm like this for a while thats whats gunna happen.
Elemental guardian Zaria · Wed Sep 17, 2008 @ 11:30pm · 1 Comments |