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Today is the day where exactly one year ago she passed away. Let me recount briefly what had happened this day one year ago. On this day, my sisters and I were going to go to a cabin up in N.H. for a couple of days. Although my sisters claim she was invited, my mom believed she wasn't. Isa called me and told me to come downstairs so we could head out. As I was getting my stuff, my mom told me to ask my sisters "Porque eyo no my invito." I didn't want to go. I didn't want to leave her but I was assured that my girlfriend would keep an eye on her. I trusted her. As I was about to leave, I see my mom rush to the living room to where my dad was watching tv. I knew what was going to happen; a fight was going to break out. She began to scream for him to get out the house, she doesn't want him there anymore. This wasn't a surprise, seeing they always got into bickerments. I tried to calm her down but something happened that never really happened before; she flipped on me. She began to scream, not yell, but scream at the very top of her lungs to leave her alone, she wants to be alone. Her eyes were buldging and it was terrifying me. She was flipping out for no reason.
I got scared and didn't know what to do. Tears began to cloud my vision and instintly I embraced my mother. I hugged her tight and didn't want to let go. She fainted to the floor. I couldn't hold her weight up but I was able to bring her down easily. She laid on my lap and i brushed back her hair and cried. No, I sobbed as i looked at her. I didn't want to go anywhere but my sister was waiting. My dad came into the room where my mom laid on my lap. She fluttered her eyes and then woke up asking where was she. My dad and I helped her up and brought her to her room. After that, I went downstairs and told my sister what had happened. My dad was still fuming about the argument but my sister told her to stay with her to watch her just in case. I knew my dad was going to do a half assed job at that so I told Isa I wanted to stay. She said no that everything's going to be alright. Psh, bull.
We road to my other sisters house and waited for her to be ready so we could troop to N.H. As I waited in the car, I recieved a phone call from my mom. I picked up and she began to tell me that she loves me so much. She wants me know that she wants me to continue school and not let anything get in my way and she told me she loves me some more. She ended it with an "Adios" and hung up. Secret tears went down. I wanted to call back but I knew it was futile. She wouldnt pick up. We began to go to N.H.
As we head to our destination, I text my girlfriend to try to keep an eye on my mom and to go over today. She agreed to it but I still felt like something was going to go horribly wrong. 4 hours later, we get near to where we're supposed to go when we get a terrifying phone call from my dad that something happened with my mom. He called my phone, worried, he said to put isa. I knew it. She began to cry because the first thing out was that Mami's dead. Dad was with the ambulance but they said she's still breathing. I knew it was inevitable. We immediately turn back and people begin to call us. Nobody said that she was fine, that she was ok. Everybody just kept saying to come soon. Another 4 hours later we arrive at BMC and once we were taken to that crappy room where i've been many times before. Never would I have thought that I would be going there so that people would be telling me that my mom passed away. It was horrifying. Jeannie collapsed, celeste couldnt breathe and isa ran out. I couldnt cry. I knew it. I knew this was going to happen the minute my mom started to yell but didnt want to believe it. Once my sisters were with others, I had to go to myself. I called my girlfriend to let her know and to come. I began to cry.
I miss my mom but hopefully she's in a better place...