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uh, where to start...all of my feelings are mixing together. i'm thinking way too much, and it's about things that i know will make me feel sad and depressed. but i think about all of these thoughts anyways. ya, you all probly i'm just a big baby talking about all of these stupid things. i think the same, but it's not my fault. i'm starting to get depressed again, i never used to think about all of these things so much that it caused me endless misery. i used to think about things, but not the stuff i think of now, and not so hard tht i would get freakin depressed over it. this sux.
*sigh* i mean i got so depressed, it lasted 9 days i think. i was able to get away for a few days, which really helped. and the support of all of my great friends, but..it's almost as if..it didn't even help at all. it did, but i still felt depressed.. cry maybe i should go talk to a counselor, but i don't want to go, i can't get myself to go. i know it could and maybe will help, but..i can't do it. ya all of you think i'm just complaining about my sucky life, i'm not asking for you to feel sorry for me, that's not it at all.
i got way upset over nothing, and i feel terrible i had to make my friends sit there and listen to my stupid, selfish problems, but..they wanted to help, and i needed to talk to someone, or i wouldv'e literally given up. all cuz of one of my friends, and ya i know that sounds bad, but it's true. i thought the deep depression passed, but..it's returning...i really don't know what i'm supposed to do...