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Well. It's the last day of school for me. I made it to high school. I'm now a freshmen. I'm gonna miss my friends. I wanna cry. But....But for some reason...I can't. My heart...it has this odd feeling. Is it because of this song I'm listening to? The song is called So In Love With 2 by Mikaila. I found the song on an amv that is about Edward, Bella, and Jacob. You can find it on me profile. I watched that CD thingy that Mrs. Aquino gave us, ya know...that Class of 2008 thingy-majing. I watched it. But I didn't cry. Why can't I cry? I have this urge to...and now I'm suddenly pissed off. I mean...really really really REALLY Pissed Off....AH!!! Come on!! I hate not knowing these kind of things!!! Is it because of Shina not being able to come to Youngker with us!? Is it because I'm leaving Nagisa!? I don't know!! Gah!! This is really pissing me off even more!! *sigh* Damn it...I'm already too too stressed out as it is! I already know that others are probably to but still...
Damn it Damn it Damn it Damn it Damn it!!!!
Screw this!! I'm not in the mood anymore!!! Oh god....I wish I can know my feelings. My feelings for things and my feelings for people. I know I've said this many times before but I'll say it again just to make it clear to everyone.
Nobody can't stop me from speaking of death. Nobody can't stop me from talking about murder, kill, and suicide. My friends, especially, should know that I wouldn't do such a thing. Mikoto and Shina were the ones that convinced me not to suicide myself. If it weren't for my mom and all of my beloved friends, I would've been here. If(keyword: IF) mom and friends turned their backs on me, then I'll kill myself. Because the reason why I'm living is to live up to the promise I made to my mom, for me and Shina's awesome future we planned, Mikoto for always worying and caring so much about me, Heigher so that I can see her someday, Masha so that I could also see her. Now...now all of my friends know everything. I never though that Shina and them would tell Masha about it....I wonder how she reacted when Masha, Heigher(she knows...right?) and Mickey found out about it...
*sigh* I made all of the people that I really love and cherish worry over me and made them cry. I made Shina cry. I hate that. I really really hate that. Making them cry like that. I hate it so much. Sometimes I just really wish that I could just disappear from the world without a trace.