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I forgot about this journal, I should write here more often.
Well not much going on in my life, nothing really positive anyway, I'm still stuck at home, unemployed and enduring stomach issues AGAIN, wonderful huh?
Oh and I was diagnosed with Ringworm, GO ME! sweatdrop
Gross, least it's not a real worm though or I'd freak out.
Only good thing is that I've lost 46 pounds and I'm actually more confident in my body now, I can fit into a size 8 jeans and I think I'll actually look decent in a Bikini this summer if I keep on the plan,and that would be swell.
I'm feeling lost as to how I can really move along with my life, I know I lack motivation but it's not just that, I do really want to get out of this house with my crazy parents but I'm afraid again because of my health issues which confine me and make me scared to go places sometimes.
I do have lexapro but I haven't been taking it because I hate what it does to my sex drive, which I know is stupid being I don't even have a boyfriend, but it's important to ME, having orgasms is one of the very few things these days that can make me happy, sad but true. I really need a man, but I'm so inexperienced at my old age of soon to be 24, that I feel inadequate as far as dating as I believe most guys expect girls to have some experience by my age and I have none, I've had A kiss and it was brief and nothing to brag about. Although I've officially deflowered myself with a sex toy I'm still also not experienced intimately, I crave it but I'm shy and under confident so it's hard to just go out and find someone you know?
Especially given I never go out and there is no where for me to meet any guys now unless I want to risk doing it online but seriously, what would I even say?
"Hi, I'm 24, unemployed, and living with my parents, want to date me?"
Wow, lots to be proud of there.
Lena
The Lena.
I do Avatar art, PM me~  The Lena · Thu May 01, 2008 @ 05:22am · 1 Comments |
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