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(Chapters 1, 2, and 3 on previous posts)
Chapter 4 - To Your Death

Can you imagine?
A world without love?
A world full of hate?
That's what I've been dreaming of.
I sit and think and I wait.
Could you imagine?

That's why we hang on,
When times are tough,
That's why we never turn our backs,
When things get rough.
So long as we love each other,
Everything will be okay.

Can you imagine?
If every day were like this night?
Can you imagine?
When everything seemed alright?
I sit and think and I wait.
Could you imagine?

That's why we hang on,
When times are tough,
That's why we never turn our backs,
When things get rough.
So long as we love eachother,
Everything will be okay.

And throughout the years,
Love has stayed.
Even if things push it out of their way.
We will be strong…

That's why we hang on,
When times are tough,
That's why we never turn our backs.
When things get rough.
So long as we love eachother,
Everything will be okay…

Chapter 4

"InuYasha…" She whispered. "It was you."

At first, he didn't understand. The words seem to pass right through him. He looked at her, as if expecting a "Just kidding!" or "Hah. Got you good, InuYasha! Now wake up!" But she didn't speak. She didn't even look at him. She just stared down, finding her shoes an interesting subject. His heart thudded once in his chest, the only sound in the unmoving forest. It was night now, in the darkest hours, the stars from the heavens shining down. A false sense of security it gave. He still didn't understand.

As if he had been reverted to a mere child, the concept of death no longer meant anything to him. It was just another word. He didn't understand what murdering was. It might as well -Then it occurred to him.
In all his years, he never thought somebody's heart could rip. Literally, rip in two. He knew pain and suffering, but none like the painful realization that hit him so hard this night. It all happened fast. He felt like he was being ripped apart from the inside, and felt hot and cold all at the same time. His eyes stung, his wounds burned, his skin prickled…and yet…he couldn't feel anything at all. No, no more crying… He thought desperately. I don't want to cry…

Kagome put her hands to her face when drops of wetness dotted the ground before her. "You didn't know what you were doing!" She wailed, still not able to look at him. "You didn't…didn't know that it was wrong, InuYasha! Please…please...it's not…not your fault…"

He couldn't talk. His throat burned and he couldn't even swallow. He took each breath with reluctance, wishing he could just forget it all. But he couldn't. Tonight would be a night that would stay with him throughout the remainder of his life. He was angry. Terribly, horribly angry with himself. How could he do such a thing? This wasn't him. But…it was his fault.

InuYasha shot up suddenly, clenching his fists at his side. "You don't know anything!" He yelled, keeping his gaze fixed on the ground. "You can't tell me it's not my fault when you know it is! All of you know! It's my fault!!" He screamed, his voice cracking and his throat bleeding from the inside. (A/N: Not really…)

"Wh-what?" Kagome trembled, staring at him. She had never seen him this angry. What did she do? He grabbed her by the collar, though not enough to hurt her.

"You heard me…" He hissed into her ear, his voice cracked and strained, trying to hold back tears. Kagome gasped audibly, whimpering.

"I-InuYasha…" She whimpered, staring up at him. "Please…don't…" She could hear the breath catching in his throat and she saw him trembling before her. He let her go. Kagome dropped to the ground with a small thud, in just enough time to see InuYasha walk off angrily. "Wait!" She called after him. The wind rushed through the empty spot, making it all seem so shallow. "No…no, no…InuYasha…" She stared after him. Shippou blinked, watching him walk away as well. He had know this was a bad idea. He had just…known.

"M-maybe we…should…let him be for a little while?" Shippou posed the question, maybe to lighten everybody up. It didn't work. At all.

"I'm going after him." Kagome stood up, wiping the tears from her eyes. "I have…I have to apologize, don't I?" She started off, wondering what she would do when she got there.

Something was off about the heavy silence that coated the forest. It set more of a feeling of dread than ever before. Kagome shuddered involuntarily, looking for any sign of InuYasha.

Not here, she thought. Not here either, she looked around. No sign of him anywhere. Oh, why can't this just be a dream? She thought. Why can't I just wake up with him yelling at me to hurry? I wish this never happened. I wish Naraku–She stopped. If Naraku were still alive, everything would be ruined. How can I think that? This is my mess I got myself in to. I'm so stupid…

She shook her head, walking a little bit further. She looked up, and then…

She saw him.

Some people would say that words couldn't describe sadness. Sadness can make you want to do nothing, or anything. Escape, or stay. Anything…or nothing at all. It's a very tricky thing, death. Some people never get over it. Some people do. Some people try, and some people don't. And some people may choose not to believe it. But either way…there is no way to replace some things.

And one thing inparticular would stay burned in Kagome's mind forever.

InuYasha was dead.

(TBC...)