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What I felt wasn't in your plans

You were my miracle this year,
you were the one i though would start it all,
start my luck,
start my happiness,
but that cmae crashing down on me,
like it has so many times before,
it hurts,
but i'm used to it now,
i just wonder why,
why can't i be the one?
there has to be something wrong with me,
i've tried so many times,
and i've always ended up picking up pieces of my heart,
and taping them back together,
but i'm out of tape now,
so what am i to do?
you have no idea how much this hurts,
but if you did,
i'm sure you'd be as depressed as me,
so i'll never let you know,
i'll just leave,
i'll find a way to put my heart back in place,
but it's never going to stop,
i'll find someone like you,
and hope and wish,
but then get crushed to the ground under all your hate for me,
I just want everyone to know,
even if i'm broken,
i'm still here,
and my lifes story will always the same,
what i felt wasn't in your plans.