I feel so forgotten by my friends they are sooo different than me, oh well. I think I should stop being such a leader and go back to being a servant, I'm not sure though the life of servatude was once very fun but will it be fun now? Losing all my power? I guess so, it'd be alright.
Me and my mother got into a huge fight last night and Idono why, I just got home and she started screaming at me... She called me useless and that she hated me and I don't know if I am useless or not... I feel really useless quite often so I am useless, you are what you feel... cry She now said I can't go to Utah which makes me even more depressed, I am starting to lose care in about everything I don't even know why I continue to keep myself alive I feel I should just die right now because life seems like it's not worth living.
That is all I have today, my life is getting worse and worse I want it to get better but it wont, no matter what I do no matter how hard I try I fail at making it better I am so useless...
 Shielsia · Wed Jun 22, 2005 @ 02:35pm · 1 Comments |
