i screwed eveythign up again... like always i ened up annoying a close friend of mine and they end up wanting to stop being freinds with me. i had a friend who was said and i wanted to help i tryed to give them comfort but i eneded up causing my friendship with my closes friend. i get overly mad and i called them selfish, but i don't know if what she did was on purpose to aviod our other friend. but i guess not i find out i've done other things to hae them hate me... i've told them to tell me so i can stop and it didn't matter if it hurt me at least i would know. but they finally tell me and end our friendship cause of my stupidity of my selfishness because i screwed up once again.
i don't want to be saounding like i'm being pittying myself and getting sympthay but maybe it would be easyier if i had no friends that i was alone in life. maybe then i would annoy so many people that i care for and then screw things up. cause them irritation or hurt. maybe i should become a hermit like some, maybe then i can live in peace with out finding out a month or two maybe a year later that i've caused someone close to me hatred and annoyance.
 Rikku42 · Sun Jun 19, 2005 @ 05:18am · 0 Comments |
