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Mood type: Bitchy, angry, pissed, annoyed, ect.....
Reason: I'm tired, NO ONE is on to talk to, because I was an HOUR late and NO ONE CARES ENOUGH TO ATLEAST CHECK THEIR MAIL NOW!!!!!!!
Solution: This rant. I'm putting this on public just so I can vent my personal anger and stress, if I mention anyone specific, sorry, I just really REALLY need to b***h right now......

I come home today expecting to find my computer, the one my dad BORROWED from me on my desk, but NO!!!!! I let him use it ALL NIGHT AND ALL DAY JUST SO HE CAN FIND A REPLACEMENT CELL PHONE FOR THE ONE HE LOST OUT OF HIS OWN STUPIDITY!!!!!! And to top it all off, when I finally get it back, NOBODY IS ONLINE!!!!!! ><!!!!!! I HAVE TO TAKE A HUGE TEST SATURDAY (uh huh, you KNOW its big when they make you come in on a weekend.....) AND I HAVE STRESS TO VENT, BUT IS ANYONE ON? NOOOOOOOOO..........I GET ON AN HOUR LATE AND I'M DEAD TO THE WORLD!!!!!!!! NO ONE WILL EVEN CHECK THEIR EMAIL TO SEE IF MAYBE, JUST MAYBE I'M ONLINE AND NEED TO VENT SOME STUFF OUT SO I DON'T HAVE TO WRITE THIS s**t OUT IN A PLACE WHERE NO ONE CARES!!!!! Hey, I understand if there are family issues, or computer problems, but a LITTLE notification would be NICE!!!!!! I take alot of s**t, and I mean ALOT of s**t, but I TRY to tell people WHENEVER I'll be away, or late, or NOT CARE ABOUT THE ISSUE AT ALL!!!!!! I have alot of crap I have to take care of!!!!! I'm a junior, I take advanced classes just so I can get an advanced diploma that, frankly, I have no intrest in, I'm just doing it as a promise to my grandfather before he died. Heaven forbid I get a C in any subject, because if I do the WORLD AS WE KNOW IT WILL STOP SPINNING!!!!!! I have to be the peacemaker when anyone gets into a fight because, apparently, thats my JOB, stand there and wait till someone needs me to give them advice, and then have that same person turn around and get MAD AT ME BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY!!!!!! Dear Zeus I'm 16 GODDAMMIT!!!!!! Plus I have a grandmother on my back about getting baptised-- I'll just say it now. I don't really believe in god that much, and the next person who tries to push that bullshit on me again is going on my ignored and getting themselves blocked out of my life. The end. Not to mention I have to be on SUICIDE WATCH 24/7 for MOST OF MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!! Well GUESS WHAT people?! I have my OWN LIFE I NEED TO LIVE!!!! I have a boyfriend who I love, my family who I love (that has no idea about the boyfriend that I love), and a future ahead of me so f*ck off and LET ME BE MYSELF DAMMIT!!!!!!

*pant pant* well then........I feel better.....kinda.....oh well, this entry will prolly be deleted or moved in the near future, fyi......I still wish people would log on so I could atleast talk to a REAL person and not empty space *sigh* times like this make me wanna start cutting again