my life's over,
or so it seems.
i told him the truth
after so long
of keeping it hidden
and within my own heart.
but i told him.
everything.
and now i hate him
and love him
at the same time.
i am confused,
angry,
and pissed
at the world.
i'll be reminded
every day
of what he did to me,
of what i put him through.
why did i do it?
why did i tell him?
i had to.
it was the right thing to do.
if i hadn't,
i'd feel even worse.
or would i?
would i feel better?
if i hadn't told him,
would this be different?
no... it'd be the same.
same torture,
same s**t,
same pile of crap.
why the HELL
did i think this'd work?
i'm an idiot!
i am a ******** jerk!
i lost a great friend
that i'll never gain back.
god, what did i do...
or so it seems.
i told him the truth
after so long
of keeping it hidden
and within my own heart.
but i told him.
everything.
and now i hate him
and love him
at the same time.
i am confused,
angry,
and pissed
at the world.
i'll be reminded
every day
of what he did to me,
of what i put him through.
why did i do it?
why did i tell him?
i had to.
it was the right thing to do.
if i hadn't,
i'd feel even worse.
or would i?
would i feel better?
if i hadn't told him,
would this be different?
no... it'd be the same.
same torture,
same s**t,
same pile of crap.
why the HELL
did i think this'd work?
i'm an idiot!
i am a ******** jerk!
i lost a great friend
that i'll never gain back.
god, what did i do...
