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LOL. Yeah, that was a really random title but it has a littl truth in it. You end up meeting the coolest people in searches for a completely different thing. I don;t know but it kinda stuck out to me, you know?

Well...I don't know wh I'm writing this post. I really don't have much to say except that my LURVE LIFE is DEAD. Just those two words shows just how PATHETIC I feel. Well, at least I have some stuff to look forward to. Like school in a few months and the shopping spree that accompanies it. And going to Knott's in a few weeks. What I really want is to see my friends. I miss them.

My mom isn't feeling so good. She's got a major headache and she's totally stressed. My pop is sleeping right now. He's really tired from working too much. Lucky him!! He has an AC in his room. I'm sizzling out here!!

I've been thinking about going back to school and some plans that I have. My goals for the summer? Save up $200 in spending money! I suck at money management so might as well learn now. I'm $50 into my goal so I might even raise it!

Another goal of mine to start going to the gym. MasterSakura and I are thinking about being work-out partners. If she gets in ROTC, we can support each other during class. We'll go jogging and stuff so that we'll be strong and finally lose all our baby fat. LOL. We're not fat. We're just doing this for, you know, self-confidence.

Anywayz, my female pug is PREGGO as in preggo-nent. Yup, she's about to POP. Anywday now. We're thinking about a home delivery and if don't decide soon, we might have one anyway!! LOL. She might have 5 or 6 this time. I feel bad because she looked miserable last time and that time, she only had 4. Motherhood's a b***h. JK, Mom.

Um...what else?

I'm reading this book called "Scrambled Eggs at Midnight". It's about these two teens who are constantly moving from place-to-place and can't find any stability in their lives until they meet each other. It's a weird title but a great book so far.

I'm listening to "The Great Escape" by Boys Like Girls. It's a pretty cool song and I relate to it alot. When I was younger, I was WAAAY different from everyone around me. I was nice but loud and smart but shy. I didn't dress like my friends and looked at things differently. I didn't have the same beliefs or views. There weren't even any Filipinos at my school. When I left that school, it was a relief. I relaized that I wasn't weird or strange, they were. At my new school, there were people who saw thing like I did. They dressed like me, talked like me and I felt like my old school was like an old skin that I had to shed before I could be beautiful.

That's kinda weird, I know. But it's true.

I've also been doing some self-evaluating. It's weird because I'm thinking about things I haven't thought about before. Like, I'm thinkign about what it's going to be like when I finally leave my parents. And what it's gonna be like to be alone, really alone. And how life isn't like a movie or a book, nice people just don't show up to make it better. It's funny. Before, all I wanted was to be with my friends and go to school, just LIVE MY LIFE. Now, I'm thinking about whether I'm still going to have my friends, where I'll go after school and how I'm gonna live my life...

That's just me though. I guess maybe it's just a phase. Like dolls and pigtails, right? I've also done some thinking about my so-called "LURVE LIFE". What do I really want? I don't know. My opnion has changed a little...

1. MAKES ME LAUGH: after being with K.Waio, I realized that I need a guy I'm comfortable around, you know, or it'll be awkward. I want a guy who can loosen me up, makes me feel safe and makes me smile.
2. SERIOUS SOMETIMES: after being with K.Waio, I also realized that I hate guys who play around too much. I can't stand it. I want a guy that I can sit next to and just talk, knowing that even if he doesn't understand and can't help, he'll still listen. I want to be able to confide in him and talk to him about serious stuff.
3. PLAYFUL ((TEASING)): after being with K.Waio (he taught me alot), I realized that I want someone I can tease and who will tease me. Not in the mean way, but in a friendly way. Sometimes, we'll annoy each other but at least it'll always be fun being around each other. Inside jokes and all that...

"Time After Time" by Quietdrive is playing now and it's getting me in a good mood. Well...that's enough seriousness for now!

LURVE U ALL!!

questions of the day?

1. Will you donate to me?
2. Do you like my new dream guy?
3. What's your dream guy like?
4. What song are you listening to?
5. What's your favorite song? Artist? Band?