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http://www.leafninja.com/biographies.php
Thoughts? Didn't know I had any of those. o.o
XD
So I had some weird dreams, uh, let's say twenty four hours ago that I woke up from a little less than twelve hours ago. >.<
I only remember one of them, which caused me to cry in-dream. >.<
Well, i actually remember three of them, but I can't remember the differences between two of them, since one was a rewind, with a small change...
It had something to do with graduating...
the one that made me cry, of course, involved my mother...
... And Rejection. >_>;
L... Let's put it at that, shall we? sweatdrop
I majorly fuxxored up my supersecretdiary, which means that you can't read every entry behind a certain one.
While effective in hiding previous entries, it also kind of works against me if I just want to go back page by page.
Instead, I have to count on being the creator of said log, and go to the 'archives'...
... Geez, I think I started that thing back just before I entered high school... it's been here all those years. XD
It's... certainly... got a lot of... blackmail material. XD
I wouldn't do so initially, due to my inherent mistrust of anything and anyone other than myself ("I actually don't trust people sometimes, at all? Weird... o.o" Sorry. I watched Surf's Up, and I already acted the least bit like the characted Chicken Joe... now I'm just plain emulating his characteristics on purpose for comedic value. XD), but I eventually let my guard down and typed some pretty personal stuff... we're talking wah-wah, holy ******** s**t, ha-ha-you-loser!, uhh, HELLO!, aww!, oooh! type stuff. >.>;
It's a good read of my mentalities at different months and ages over the years.. and it's fun to see how I've matured as well as somehow liberating to see how my thinking has changed... just to have a record of how I thought at any age is amusing... as well as educational.
You know, we're all smart at any given age. We are...
It's only when we're older that we used to be so stupid. XD
That's what I'm noticing... n_n;
You could be advanced for your age, and still grow up to be such a loser in certain ways... XD
but even if you are, at least it's not as bad as that certain point in time. XD
It's like... why can't we love ourselves?
Because we were ignorant... ignorance can be hard to love. >_>;
An ignoramus even harder to love. >.<
When we learn more about the world around us, we confuse that for being 'smart' while it's definitely under the 'educated' category.
I guess what I'm thinking is "Wow... why can't we just accept ourselves for who we were at the time? We really couldn't help it at the time, we could only wait for the changes to come as they came... and the fact that they ever came should be the important thing. There are people with faults. Everyone has them... but we still have family, friends, etc... and we find those people to be tolerable. Those people label themselves as having been intolerable when they were, say, twelves years old. What changes did they go through? At least they went through those changes. That's what really matters."
It's not who you were then-it's who you are now, basically. XD
Oh geezus, this can turn into another rant/stream of consciousness entirely...
If that's true, then old friends are probably a hindrance in a way... because we change so much over the years, the compatability changes as well... maybe you can't be close as you once were anymore because some crucial factors have changed.
Changes in personality, status, mindset, change it all...
and you're a totally different person from you where back then.
Granted, some things never change, but are those cores made up of the things that should have changed for the better, or are they things that are merely tolerable? Are they a good part of your personality that enables you to be loved for it? A positive?
I'm a fan of the zodiacs, things like that...
so I truly do believe that we are born with certain characteristics that are readily a part of us... even if they have nothing to do with the day, hour, month, or year we were born... I still believe...
Are those deeply embedded parts of our personality something that we'll learn to love or hate? Other will learn to love or hate?
*sigh*
It's three-thirty six in the morning.
I'm tired of thinking anymore tonight. >.<;
 Sakura Moonflower · Fri Jun 22, 2007 @ 11:33am · 0 Comments |
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