Dear Journal,
Itz dark outside. I just finished my homework and I'm feeling a little depressed. I thought that being with K.Waio would be cool. No one seemed against and everyone seemed to support me. But suddenlt I feel like my whole world has broken in half.
Kimerald has always been a good friend of mine. We've know each other for three whole years. For that whole time she's liked him. She told me that she was over him but I know better. She still likes him and I know that now. It hurt me so bad when she told me.
She wrote it in her hjournal for everyone to see. I feel so horrible. Like I stole something from her. I don't know why but I just started to cry. My eyes hurt now and I feel really tired. But I can't go to sleep rite now. My heart is too heavy. I have to write or I mite exploded.
A part of me knew that she still had sum feelings for him. I guess her cheers were too gud to be true. I appreciate dat she did that for me but i wish she could have told me the truth. If it really hurt her that bad, I wouldn't have said any of that stuff to her. I don't wanna lose Kimerald over sum guy.
I wish that I was little again. Everyone would believe in cooties and germs. It never hurt this much before to be dumped. I don't think I've felt this depressed in a long time. I just hope that Kimerla dknows I'm sorry. And that I won't do it again. I just wish that I had known before. I should have seen it earlier. She shudd told me how she felt.
Gosh. I'm starting to cry again. I feel so guilty for doing that to her. I'm such a horrible friend and I HATE MYSELF for letting it go this far. I feel so STUPID and PATHETIC. I should've put her before him. He's just a guy...who should be hers. Everyone should be pressuring him to go out with her, not me. Everyone should be saying "Kimerald and K."
I haven't fought for a guy for three years. The last time it happened, I lost my best friend. I hate her for doing all those horrible, mean things to me before, but I don't blame her. It was my fault too. I don't wanna lose Kimerald the same way. I don't wanna cry over losing a friend.
I am such a horrible person. I hate that I let her suffer. I hate that I let her put up a brave front. I hate that I was stupid enough to believe that she was over him. Itz ok. I'll be ok.
And if tomorrow, I cry a river, at least I know that it was for the best.
Tonight, yes, this night
I'll break my own heart
No
I won't let him break me
I'll break myself
For my friend
My tears will fall
F
A
L
L
I'll let him go
I'll let her go
I'll wish them luv
Hurt in silence
Break
But at least
They'll be so much more
HAPPIER than me
questions...
1] do u hate me?
2] am i doing da rite thing by backing off?
3] is it stupid of me to cry?
4] have u ever felt this way?
5] Forgive me 4 being so stupid?
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