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Maybe I don't give a ********. Maybe I'm just so ******** sick of you constantly being 'ill', geuss what I've got just about noone after you. Maybe I don't always want to do all the work.
Maybe I hate being expected to do everything on a whim. Maybe I'm ******** sick and tired of you never being there when I need you, but me always having to be there for you. Maybe it's time I faced the truth, that you're the reason I cry. You're the reason I cut. You're the reason I'm a paranoid, depressive, nervous wreck. You're the reason I just want to just give up on everything and never look back again. Maybe best friends aren't meant to let you fall so low, maybe half the point of them is to make you happy. Maybe I hate myself for loving you. Maybe I just hate myself point blank. But I could never hate you, ever. Maybe the reason I've started cutting in school is because you're not there, the empty seat by my side that should hold my best friend. The one who I thought I could always rely on. The one who would always be there. I've got a lot to learn I know. And God I hate myself for loving you. And I don't like you for being such a self obsessed b***h, always thinking your perfect. My god it hurts me. And my God I'm sorry I ever dared write this. And I'm sorry I love you. And I'm just sorry. I'm going offline now, if you want to talk me be arsed to do something for once in your life and go on msn. Sorry hunny.


your words burn my skin you know. How could you say such things. You know how much you've hurt me?
i was so looking forward to being able to wear short sleeves again you know. Being able to joke around with tom and not feel guilty when he asked me if they have healed yet
maybe i dont want to go on msn
maybe i wish i didnt have to go to school. Just be ble to stay in a corner all day. I hate being around people. I hate being around steve. Tom to. You also
do you know how much your words hurt me?
get over yourself. Old friend
never again will i say the words i wish without a death at the end. Not now. You evil spawn of a b***h