Hand On Heart And Swear To Say
I dont know why I'm back on here. Should of just killed my account ages ago *damn~snaps*
But its the only way to make sure Brandon has read my message I sent him wondering if he even read it *yawn*
bastered is alisha true ?
I dont know why I'm even writing this I'm just mad and even hurt
Maybe I shouldt of read it all again all your venom you spit like me,myself and I
If I could take all your words and shove them back down your throat, and watch you choke I would I SWEAR I WOULD even if it killed me to know Its my fault in the end
If I could wrap your hands and my throat and make you choke ME until I breath no more I would even if it killed you to know you killed not only me but your 'safe person' If I had the guts I would have a long time ago, a long long time ago
If i took all my lies and made me swallow them would there be anough to even see? Because I didnt lie, not ever. Not when you asked if I hated you I didnt even hate you then But when it became my lifestyle to ignore you and your plees of love back thats when I hated you, and everything you ever said.
your venom
my venom
your lies
My tears
And your almost feeble attempts to help me when I held the razor inches away from the skin already bleeding and scarred
Beacuse these scares dont heal, do they alisha? Because these scars on my heart wont heal. You made them, I made them. They wont heal and I wont help yours heal either
Because through all this venom your still my best freind, the other leader, My Rp buddy who turned my nekointo a slut (yes it was funny and made me blush) your the one who made sure Jezz had a date to the dance, your the one who made sure Jezz could finally get to 'try' with him, your the one who gave Loots her first taste of kill, Hell your the one who made me laugh while in tears to always, because your still my best freind
But I hate you.
But its the only way to make sure Brandon has read my message I sent him wondering if he even read it *yawn*
bastered is alisha true ?
I dont know why I'm even writing this I'm just mad and even hurt
Maybe I shouldt of read it all again all your venom you spit like me,myself and I
If I could take all your words and shove them back down your throat, and watch you choke I would I SWEAR I WOULD even if it killed me to know Its my fault in the end
If I could wrap your hands and my throat and make you choke ME until I breath no more I would even if it killed you to know you killed not only me but your 'safe person' If I had the guts I would have a long time ago, a long long time ago
If i took all my lies and made me swallow them would there be anough to even see? Because I didnt lie, not ever. Not when you asked if I hated you I didnt even hate you then But when it became my lifestyle to ignore you and your plees of love back thats when I hated you, and everything you ever said.
your venom
my venom
your lies
My tears
And your almost feeble attempts to help me when I held the razor inches away from the skin already bleeding and scarred
Beacuse these scares dont heal, do they alisha? Because these scars on my heart wont heal. You made them, I made them. They wont heal and I wont help yours heal either
Because through all this venom your still my best freind, the other leader, My Rp buddy who turned my nekointo a slut (yes it was funny and made me blush) your the one who made sure Jezz had a date to the dance, your the one who made sure Jezz could finally get to 'try' with him, your the one who gave Loots her first taste of kill, Hell your the one who made me laugh while in tears to always, because your still my best freind
But I hate you.
I Hate You More Each EveryDay
