I just needed to write this and I don't know where else I can do it....
To whom it may concern,
You don't know me that well and I'm sure you don't feel for me like you say you do... but right now, you are laying down on the floor in front of me. You are sick as a dog and I know you no longer wish to be here with me. You want to go home and stay there and take back everything we have done. I've wasted your money and your time. I'm sorry and I wish I could make everything much better. Now, I think you are too far committed and unable to back-peddle. I am in a strange place and without a home, now. I have thrown out many days of school and hours with my sick cat so I can be with you. So I could hold you and kiss you and love you... Please know, I don't regret any of it and I will gladly do it all over again. We did so much together and spent so much time together and, even though we have known each other for only a few moments, I do love you. I don't think you want to be touched or bothered right now and I don't believe you want to talk to me or see me at the moment but I will be here when you need me. I will run to the store at 4 in the morning to buy you medicine or drive 200 miles to get you something you need. You have done so much for me and I will make it up to you with my love and honesty. I don't know where this relationship is going, I don't know how much longer you will put up with my bull s**t... but I will appreciate every single moment you give me. I will gladly stay where I am and starve and work my a** off and pray for a brighter future. I'm very sick and very tired. I'm hungry and sad and lonely and I need you in my life because you make my days brighter and my nights more manageable. This is just me rambling and getting out everything I can't tell you. I don't know if you want to hear any of this or not... but I pray that one day you will understand me and know I only wish the best for you.
Erae Community Member 
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