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I love you like its crazy
I love you 'cos your mine
Though I feel bad that I missed
Your life for the longest time

Years went by because we were shy
The whole time a first time love
But I promise to stick with you baby
But forever just isn't enough

High school romance can kiss my a**
Because I know this is going to last
Circumstances might not be forever
But even forever would be too fast

For the time I have you
I will hold you dear
I will love you and kiss you and hug you and keep you
Year after Year after Year

Smoke with you in the rain
You know I love you babe
Like a tripping sea of tangerine
Always floating beyond belief

In the rain, in the rain
Yeah--- the octaves rising
Like a sinister Monarchy

I speak unto you
Only light is shine
String the strung strand
You know I'll always love you in the rain
Yeah In the rain, in the rain
Yeah--- the octaves rising
Like a sinister Monarchy

Kiss you in between drags in between kisses with you
Oranges floating on lemon peelings
Skin ruptures in blue skies
I always guide you in the rain
Rain, yeah---
Tripping beyond belief
Your sinister Monarchy
Smoke with you then we kiss

In a room

Small​ room

Enclo​sed space​

No area

Suffo​cated​

Claus​troph​obic

It is insan​ity

It is infin​itely​

Incom​prehe​nsibl​e

You can'​t under​stand​

I don'​t know

You never​ can.

Kill the thoug​hts

I thoug​ht

I did

Fun

Hyper​

Shaki​ng

Paran​oid

Enlig​htene​d

Overw​helme​d

Immor​al

Wrong​

Right​

Pleas​urabl​e

Spiri​tual

Physi​cal

Menta​l

Emoti​onal

Growt​h

Enlig​htenm​ent

Awake​ning

Rebir​th

Renew​ed

Refre​shed

Rejuv​enate​d

Relax​ed

Rebir​th

Contr​ol

Decon​trol

Contr​ol

Lost Contr​ol

Spinn​ing

Lost

Found​

Fast Forwa​rd

Sleep

​

Awake

​

Heavy

Movin​g Fast

Tired​

Hyper​

Spinn​ing

Confu​sed

Blank​

Disso​ciate​d

Alien​ated

Searc​hing

Answe​rs

God

Break​throu​gh

Eupho​ria

Empty​

Blank​

Infin​ite

Capab​le

My mind expan​ded infin​itely​ into highe​r dimen​sions

​Seein​g the unive​rses for ever and ever

I could​ see every​thing​ and anyth​ing forev​er

I compr​ehend​ed the incomprehensible at last

The big bang of my mind

It's hard to expla​in to the unenl​ighte​ned

You had to have been there​

Every​thing​ gone

Every​thing​ empti​ed

Start​ a City

Build​ the Walls​

Let no one in

Trapp​ed

Conta​ined Happi​ness

Sanit​y

Thoug​htles​sness

​ Peace​

Calm

Walls​ to keep them out

Feeli​ng tight​

The barba​rians​ pushi​ng

They faile​d to get in

I've built​ a City Gates

​City Limit​s

City Walls​

Good Thoughts in

All Thoughts out

All alone​ in my mind

The war in my mind is over

Enclo​sed Space​

Small​ Room

In a room.

I need a good excuse to get off the thoughts

Any excuse is a good enough one for me

I will kill it, I will destroy it, It will be gone

I'm treating the mental ill by destroying it

They say to stay away and they say I'm okay

They don't know me, they don't live in me!

I'm already suffering, it's not gonna hurt

I'm not going to be the freak on a doctor's gift bascketcase of medication

You;re on medication too? well good for you

It's not for me so leave me be

It's my life, my disiscion, my will to kill it

I will beat it, with the help of washing it away

Stop.

Don't Do It.

It's Not Worth It!

YOU ******** LOSER!

YOU WASTE!

Thanks for the advice, but trix are for kids.

My mind was made up from the start

I couldn't even convince myself that reality was real

There was nothing, an endless nothing, not even void

not even bulk

not even nothing.

To stop thinking, heh, it would be great.

All day I live in exhaustion my mind walking a hundred miles in a night

No sleep until the pigs come home, and my dear the pigs are all dead

Since the day I was a sixth grader, probably before that

No sleep until the fat lady sings, my dear the fat lady is dead

Sometimes it's just not worth it

It's not worth the pain that hurts so much

Unbearable more than anything physical

I can't even comprehend my own obscure thoughts

Forever Unsociable. Antisocial. Socially Awkward.

The crowds that drive a man to attack

The gatherings make the anxiety, the panic

Attack. Kill it. Unsociable forever.

If it kills me then I wasn't really anything

If it survives me then nothing isn't anything

If I survive it's death then oh wouldn't it be grand

Completely cured mentally, spirtiually, physically

This is my life

This is my fight

This is mine

This is right

My demons are no longer allowed to control me

And unless there is some deus ex machina

some miracle divine intervention

some meaning of life

meaning of death

meaning of everything, anything, and nothing

any reason for my cursed mind

scarred mind

warring mind

I will drive on this road without stop signs

"HEY t**t ARE YOU SERIOUS?!!"

You're immature, you really didn't care
You just needed a good excuse for my sex, drugs, and rock'n'roll
Well I ain't givin' so you ain't livin'
And now it's all my fault.
HA!

You think you've won the game
You might think I even care!!~~
But you're wrong, I don't, I'm just another guy
Another guy who won't put out for you
HA HA HA HA HA HA!

I'm not gonna change
I'm not gonna, I'm just not gonna
It's my life and I'm lovin' it
And I don't need a whore to make it better

So thanks for the times
Even though they sucked
And thanks for the hard time
After you broke up with me!
.............................................
(after end of song)
Oh, by the way, your Mom's a b***h!

Pride is War
We don't need more
We don't need more
No ******** more

I'm an American so ******** what?
I bring Democracy to you because
You're forced to be free as if that makes sense
If you're different, you must die

White, Black, Brown, Yellow, maybe even Green
It's a color, you're still human, see what I mean?
I'm tired of these racists on all sides
Al Sharpton's got no rights over Hitler

Pride is War! Pride is War! Pride is War!
I decale War on Pride, the Pious, the Proud!
Pride is War! I declare war! Pride ******** War!

"Why can't you cunts and dicks, excuse me, 'ladies and gentlemen,' just open your eyes and see past the color of your skin, or the location on your birth certificate, or the social-class of your parents, and see people for who they ******** are? You racist homophobic xenophobic sexist greedy pigs are the scourge of the Earth! We don't need some Al Sharpton Jesse Jackson Adolf Hitler Joseph Stalin George Bush so proud of their people. Pride is the number one killer on this Earth causing Genocides lasting centuries, causing World Wars, causing lie after lie after war after war after death after kill. Vietnam wasn't a threat, it was just a different way of life!"

We can keep our Nations, just dispose of the Nationalism. Pride is war, no ******** more!

Rodney King was a Madman
Rodney King was a Killer
Hyped up on drugs and alcohol
The cops just did their jobs

This is not about a Race War
This is not about "the truth"
I'm gonna side with the ones I hate on this
The Nazis had it right for once

I'm no racist, I'm just a thinker
Put yourself in the wrong position
A giamungo and terrifying man on PCP
And your fearing for your life

Rodney King was a Madman
Rodney King was a Killer
It's not always a Black and White Movie reel
Did the poor truckers and riots really make it better?

Just the other day, I was sitting in class
While minding my own business; comes this jackass
"Hey you emo!" was his insult of brain
"You have no emotions!" was his follow of shame
So I stopped looking at Vampires and creatures of such
I had things to say, however not much
"I thought I was emo, thus emotions have I;
If I was emotionless, emo is a lie"
I brought up a picture of Jesus or two
Laughing at God's humor of gloom
I saw a funny Hitler, what a score!
While ignoring calls of "freak," "sicko," and more
The response I had was quite revealing
"That doesn't at all hurt my feelings"
And here we come back, to the beginning
Of an Emotionless Emo-- never more living
The mentality of society is a sad, sad thing
Of violence, hatred, and degradation they sing
Let's not come out; Let's not conform
Let's stay away; Let's stay obscure
Fraks may we be, but only for good
We have our own minds, Goth is our 'hood

"I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: 'We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal.'"

Proclamation of
Discrimination
Within our nation
Is what we're facin'

Black and White and Red and Yellow
And Punk and Goth and Prep and Jock
All men are equal in the eyes of our Lord
Yet somehow Prejudice is amidst

Words are go and work real slow
But actions speak louder than words
Leaders and Feeders and Readers and Needers
All show the action of hate

The Church of Hate is alive to date
And has been here since before Jesus Christ
Hate your neighbor and cheat a friend
Hypocritical 'till the end

Stereotyping, rather than typing
Positive about a difference
I'm black, I'm a Jew, what about you?
Who cares, you're a teenaged freak

Martin, a Saint, told us we're equal
Not to exploit ourselves
We've no real difference from one-another
Let's ******** this hate and get along

Yo, Check, Is my Mic on? Bring it in, here we go:

At the old bar downtown, and the discos around
All we seem to hear are these old racist sounds
Country for hicks and Rap for dicks
Techno for geeks and Punk for freaks

It's time for a new thing
We can finally all sing
No reason nor rhyme
Just wasting my time
No politics nor opinions
Might offend someone
And we gave up guitar
Because it was way too fun

We aren't quite so heavy
Or soft as we like
We're right in the Middle
Hey, that's all right
We aren't gloom and doom
And we don't get up hopes
We don't sing for love
We don't sing for dope

It's time for a new sound
For a new decade
But don't worry,
It's just to make everyone happy
We can't say we'll dance
We can't say we won't
We can't say we even sing
Or play music at all.