(something i wrote a very long time ago..thought i lost and was found by a very dear friend of mine Enjoy..)
He alone stands in the shadows as the darkness lives in him.. Taking the visions of the past so he cannot see.."Why me..why me".he says aloud as he falls to his knees..shaking as misery torments him daily. He than shouts to the heavens."It was my time not hers..so in defiance you took her from me instead, Why is what i want to know?" he waits in vain for an answer,but none he gets,....The shadows.. his new friends, they thrive in his mind.for what seems like forever.The show him new things.. the beauty and what should be..not what is to be.. these dreams.nightmares to some..enrich his soul..enrich his mind...keeping his insanity dormant so life can be lived.but he is troubled. he has loves and acquaintances..friends..but he has them intertwined.not knowing what to do..."What shall be done?", he says to himself.he paces in his mind as he speaks, "the two i cherish hurt me so..one torments herself on trying to befriend. and one doesn't see past issues that keeps her angered..."I do see similarities as they do not.What am i to do?..Grin and and let it be as if nothing?..or tell them and fear losing them both?"...then he thinks to himself.."I'm hurting myself..yes?..but it is a way to cope"he looks to the mirror..seeing what he has become and not liking what he sees."but i can physically harm myself like one.or mentally like the other", he pauses for a moment as he looks to past scars,"or" he thinks." i can just let it be. and just pretend that i am happy." smiling as he is pleased with his idiotic reasoning. just then,, he is not alone...a darker voice. beckons him from the darkness.speaking to him as if someone else.." Do what you will..be of no concern with them..they hurt you..yes?..well then..embrace the hurt and make it love,,as you know. we are your family.." the darkness said as his dark hand points to the shadows.speaking again," you have gave us all names.and we are with you forever.." a smile is seen "but you let us play with them as well..but i am concerned...Why have you been avoiding her..but yet speak with the other?" another shadow speaks,"you say you love her,but yet you speak more with the young one...i just wonder..have you really..stopped with the other so not to hurt the young one..or is it that you tire of the one you love?..He speaks angered," i am only one man.. i want to be with you all..but i cannot have my way..so i have to separate you all to contain sanity... he turns and fades away as the shadows look on...knowing in their dark hearts that he cares too much. and little of himself....
I have a coat hanger...
My bike has no wheels...
The world is round...
COCONUTS!!!!...
Mmmmm Jelly...
The sky is blue 'cause it's sad....
 Camster · Sat Aug 02, 2008 @ 03:54am · 1 Comments |
