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For all those people that read this, and the friends of mine that read this, and of the friends that read this that are on this list,..Do you know who you are? Do you know where you stand? How will you feel after reading this..

Friend 1: This person is very sweet, but so concieted. They only think of themselves and what benefits them the most. I wish so much to help this person, but I tried and I didnt exactly succeed, but thats alright, at least I tried. This person will never understand. No matter how much people try to explain to this person, they'll block their ears and refuse to listen. Love love love..its another meaningless word tossed around. This is the person that hurts me the most. No matter if I try to smile for this person, this person would still not smile back. So many things I've said, out of hate, hurt and pain but thats still not an excuse. Things will -never- be the same. Is this the reason you hate me..so? Why do you put down my beliefs..when you cant even stand up for your own?

Friend 2: Loudmouthed, Complex and completely emotional, but lovable and carring. We fight, we bicker, we love, we laugh and we cry together. We can talk endless hours about nothing and its still all good. But the things they say hurt a lot. Silently Ill sit and pretend everything is okay, but its really not. Your words anger me, and Im filled with anger. Hypocrisy, Crosswords, but I still love you, but if I say that, I am then also a Hypocrite because I remain silent. Would you still love me if I finally told you enough was enough? How far do I have push and shove, for you to budge? I hope these words reach you. My beliefs are important. I may not be perfect in this area, but they mean a lot to me. Its the only thing Ill always have that I can be sure of. Though I hope I can say the same about our friendship because we were destined to meet, on that random day when you became the 1st person to accept me and talk to me.

Friend 3: You -ARE- beautiful. Though inside I know you're hurting, I cry for you. I wish I could wrap these invisible wings around you and hold onto you tightly, so you could shed your tears in the arms of comfort. Your eyes are wonderful, they are the window to your soul. You suicidal intentions and your crys for help are signified by the signs you give. Believe me I see them. I worry, I cry, but more of all I care. If there is one thing you should know, I love you. You will never have to worry about me accept you because I always will. We'll always be friends, no matter what road we take, and I hope we can meet back up on this road one day and be able to look back at all the things and remember.. "Wasnt it great when we were kids" and remember all the stupid things we did. Lets create wonderful memories we can look back on and remember the times we shared because I dont want to ever forget you and I hope you can say the same.

Friend 4: You try, you attempt, yet you fail in your own eyes if I dont approve. You try to hard to please me, but the truth is Im just happy being your friend. I cant stand you half the time, but that doesnt mean I dont like being your friend. You mean more than you know, even if I refuse to show it. My words may seem hurtful at times, but look back on it all now. Think of how hurt you use to be back before we met and think of how you are now. My words arnt as hurtful anymore, because you've gotten so strong. I've watched you grow in my eyes, and in my opinion, thats the greatest gift you could've given me. No weight in gold could amount to this. Just remember, we'll always be friends. Zutto Tomodachi, One-san.

Friend 5: From lovers to friends, you've been there with me through the end, but now not so much. I see your shadow always, and your smile in my dreams. Perhaps we weren't to be, but I miss you. You're friendship is the most important. You help'd me in my roughest times and together we helped each other make it through the roughest times, if not physically but emotionally. The things we shared I will never forget. You are my Shadowfox and Ill remain your Vorel. Can you live with that? Have you forgotten? If you have if you forget me then I know that I can live with that, because Ill still live on in your past if not in your future. We went through the best of times and the worst and Ill always still be here waiting. I keep dreaming one day you'll come back and remember me, and share with me that smile..that smile only for me. Things will never be the way they were the first, but Im okay with that. Im glad we were able to create those memories,..and those are the ones I treasure most. If you forget me, I hope one day we can meet again, and you'll smile at me and remember The Angel's Tear.

Friend 6: You're one crazy Mo'fo. yes,..Mo'fo, that I love. Even though I hate your smoking habit. You put me through HELL from the beginning..but for reasons we both know now. You always manage to make me smile even when my day was s**t. I'm greatly in debt to you, so I thank you. Truly, I cant repay this price. I enjoy our talks on the phone..no matter how random they are or how meaningless that they may be to you, I enjoy every one of them. I enjoy your company on nights while im up late doing homework,..and knowning you dont have to be there talking with me, you do anyways. I hate how your TV is always up so loud,..you say I have freakish ears, but maybe you're just deaf. smile . You've helped to improve my self confidence, and my Self awareness alot. I really appreciate it. Thats why I am who I am..and evenwhen I do lack self confidence, you always help to build it up again. Your real life comes first, and thats okay. But someday, Im going to run into the distant sun and meet you in that life.