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World of Warcraft is very addictive!
For all we have, humankind, all the "technology" we are really not so different from the animals we rose from. I was reading about the war and people killing eachother and other such things. And for all of our higher reasoning, all of us, in extreme situations react based of off instince. If you have ever felt threatened you know what I mean. Reason goes out the window. I was watching ants the other day, they were invading my kitchen. Now I don't kill ants mind you, I clean up whatever they are after and they leave eventually. Anyway I put a line of soap in there path to discourage them while I was cleaning. So all the ants run into it and stop. Then one ant bites the soap, and reels back. Seriously reels, I have never seen an ant reel, but that is what it did. It backpeddled like a full inch. So I guess it must have left its chemical scent for attack, because every ant after that would bite the soap and reel back. The reeling ant would slam into ants running along the trail, who, after just seeing this ant reel back would get to the attack scent and bite the soap. Instinct, and people are just alittle different. Threaten someone's life to a certain degree and despite all our higher thinknig we will react a instinctive way.
I don't know if I am sad about this or what...
I digress.
Goodnight
 Apollo_Farstriker · Wed Nov 17, 2004 @ 09:26am · 0 Comments |
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So now I have Halo 2, but I was too late to become a WOW Beta tester. I don't actually care because I would never pay monthly to play a video game anyway, and I think MMOPRG or whatever you call them sort of suck...
So tommorrow is Thursday, and I am glad another week is coming to a close. It has been a long one. I have to finish one essay and start another this weekend crying , but I will manage.
Everything is going pretty well.
Apollo_Farstriker · Thu Nov 11, 2004 @ 10:33am · 1 Comments |
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Take a deep breath. Again. Now look around the room as if you were just born into this world. Let the chatter of your mind diminish into the tranquility of the harmony that is all things.
Now you are on your way towards living as it is and meant to be.
Impermance is a law of the universe, it may even be the only law of the universe, but due to the nature of impermance, this could change couldn't it? Accept Impermance and you will start to see that you never need to suffer, and that no material possession, no person, no lover, no standards will ever make you happy forever, except the one that doesn't exist.
You are very much like a bird falling from the sky that doesn't know how to fly... but you do know how to fly you just have to spread your wings. And not only that, you could always fly. All you have to do is save yourself.
First learn to love yourself and then you will see you already love everything else.
Apollo_Farstriker · Wed Nov 10, 2004 @ 08:53am · 0 Comments |
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I was feeling great last week, but this week I am feeling ...meh.
I don't really know why, I think everything is okay. I had a dream about Julie last night and I think that has me missing her. I am feeling healthy, but I still have mild sick symptoms, I have had them on and off for about a month now? A month or so.
I think I am feeling down because I was lazy all weekend. I think it is important to have short term goals and accomplishments in one's life to be happy. I am trying to be "in the moment" more and that has helped as well. Also, school is starting to wear me out. I have been very tired lately because I am having trouble falling asleep and then I have to wake up to go to school. Oh, well - I have about 6 weeks left and I am just going to have to power through. I really don't know how I am going to get a job and only get two weeks of vacation a year. I mean, I get about 18 or so weeks of a year from school now... and I still get burnt out.
So, anyway I am trying to smile... oh and on a positive not I benched 175x3 at the gym the other day, so I not only met, but surpassed my goal.
Apollo_Farstriker · Tue Nov 09, 2004 @ 10:37pm · 0 Comments |
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So I didn't pre order Halo 2 because I didn't want to fail out of school, and I am an idiot! There were like 500 people at EB games today when I decided I might try to get it, at 12:01 am.. but they are out.. I am screwed. Now I really want it crying Oh well. I got into a Counter Strike Clan, so that rules. .BAD. 24/7 office - double rulez..
So yeah, no Halo 2. cry
Apollo_Farstriker · Tue Nov 09, 2004 @ 09:00am · 0 Comments |
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Well, I have 6 hours before my meeting *gulp* I should really get to bed... I don't want to sleep tonight though. My mind is blank today, which is nice for a change. I am trying to stay positive about everything and it is working well. I haven't spoken to Julie for about a week, an agreement between us, and it is helping me not think of her so much. I still like and miss her though. I went to a party tonight and realized how much I hate fake people. Especially sorerity girls.... they make me miss Julie even more. My friends were there though so it was nice to see them. School is going well at least. Gaia is fun too. I wrote a new food death for the therad and people seemed to like it.
Sometimes I wonder what the point of it all is...
Apollo_Farstriker · Sat Nov 06, 2004 @ 11:28am · 0 Comments |
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Well great news, I got A's on both my midterms and and A on my quiz. I also finished my in class essay and I think it went pretty well. I saw the Corporation and the Incredibles today, both were very good. The Corporation was depressing though, it makes me want to become an greenpeace activist xp
This weekend I am going to relax and celebrate my lack of midterms.
Hmm, I was going to enter a really long journal post but I am lazy right now.. tune in for more later domokun
Apollo_Farstriker · Fri Nov 05, 2004 @ 11:01am · 0 Comments |
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Well, my Midterm went well and my quiz went okay.... so I will get the results for those tests on Wednesday, now I am studying for my Finance Midterm tommorrow, I also have a in class essay - a rough week all in all.
So I can get the parking permit soon - yay - no towing my car!
I talked to Julie today and she said she was sorry about being kind of mean to me. I decided that I have to think about where we are going in this relationship. I would like it to continue, but I have a feeling if things go wrong I am going to be very heartbroken, but I decided that you have to risk that if you ever want to make progress in relationships. So we will see what happens when she comes back!
I am very hungry right now.
Hmm I don't like these journal entries, I think they should be deeper or more philosophical, because when I go back and read these they are like boring reports of my day.. okay from now on I am going to write my journal entries in a stylized way.. but tommorrow I am too tired right now wink
Apollo_Farstriker · Tue Nov 02, 2004 @ 09:07am · 0 Comments |
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Two Midterms... a Parking permit.. and life |
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So tommorrow I have an Accy 111 Midterm that I studied all weekend for so I should be fine. I just hope my car is there tommorrow morning. Apparently we were all supposed to get new parking permits but everyone failed to mention that to me.
Things have been going okay. My sick symptoms are gone today but I am still going to go to the doctor on tuesday just to make sure I am okay! I haev not talked to Julie yet.. and I don't really know if I want to. I think I am just going to call her in a couple of weeks. She likes to call me once and hang up so that I call her back but I might just ignore that for a while. Is that messed up though? I don't know.... she wants to have less communication but then she calls me all the time. And I am still kind of hurt over that last phone call. Grrr... don't know what to do.
Well I guess I am off to the food thread.
Hopefully I ace that test tommorrow... hopefully. wink
Apollo_Farstriker · Mon Nov 01, 2004 @ 09:36am · 1 Comments |
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