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We are back again!
It's been a long time actually since I posted here, and a lot have happened.
So much has actually happened that I can't list all of it.
In disorder:
- I am still working at my job, and I still enjoy it.
- I left my appartment.
- I bought a house
- I bought a car
- I got a cat
- I got rid of a cat
- I found the woman of my life
- I moved in my new house with my gf.
- I will go scuba diving.
- I went to ski, and I will go again soon.
- I had a lot of fun.
- Did I mentioned that I had a lot of fun? Because I still have fun. xd
And I am sure I forgot a few things that happened.
 Ideki · Tue Feb 13, 2007 @ 03:56am · 2 Comments |
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First Happy new year to everyone. smile
And now a small review of my 2005 year.
- I was working in japan for 5 year until 7 may 2005.
- I moved to Montreal, Quebec.
- I got a nice appartment.
- I finally met again my friends here after 4 years.
- I spent almost five months looking for a job.
- I got a nice job.
- It's snowing a lot in montreal. (In case you do not know, I love snow) xd
- I am very gratefull that I could spent the last few days of 2005 with my friends. We had a lot of fun. And I mean a LOT. whee
- I am still looking ofr a girlfriend. gonk
Not a so bad year in the end. A few things could have been better, but life is life, and I am already happy with what I got.
We will see what 2006 will bring us. biggrin
Ideki · Mon Jan 02, 2006 @ 05:05pm · 1 Comments |
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Yes, finally.
Some of you have seen me online before today.
But I was kinda busy.
Quick news.
I have an appartment, and a few furnitures.
Internet, phone,...
Now I just need to get a job.
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Taken from Memai-chan's journal. wink
Answer only if you want. wink
What if:
[1] I committed suicide:
[2] I said I liked you:
[3] I kissed you:
[4] I lived next door to you:
[5] I started smoking:
[6] I stole something:
[7] I was hospitalized:
[8] I ran away from home:
[9] I got into a fight and you weren't there:
What do you think about my:
[1] Personality:
[2] Eyes:
[3] Face:
[4] Hair:
[5] Clothes:
[6] Mannerisms:
Other:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you hump me? xD
[13] Would you marry me?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are we close?
[33] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?x
Ideki · Fri May 20, 2005 @ 03:34am · 1 Comments |
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Today is my last with Internet.
Tomorrow I have to give back the modem.
In 2 days I will take my plane for Canada.
Then I hope to be able to get Internet quickly.
I will see you all on the other side. wink
Ideki · Thu May 05, 2005 @ 04:01am · 0 Comments |
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To the stars and beyond !! |
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I took my decision.
I will move out of japan the 7 May.
I went to the travel agency today to get a reservation on the airplane ticket.
My new country is Canada.
I am going to Montreal.
I went there 3 years ago or so to meet friends.
And I really like the country and people.
I always told my mother that if I had to move out of japan, I would go to Canada or Australia.
Now I have to organize everything here before my departure.
Stuffs to sell, contracts to cancel, organizing the move of the stuff I want to keep,...
I have a bit more than 2 weeks to do everything.
So I should be ok.
I will try to keep internet until the last days if possible.
But I will probably have to go the few last days without.
Then I will need a bit of time to get internet again when I will be in Montreal.
I will try to get on the net before if I can, but I can't make any promise.
I don't have a job offer yet, but a companie asked me to come for interviews.
And I will search for a job very actively when I will be there.
So who knows...
I hope to get a good job soon, to find a nice appartement, and to meet again my friends very soon.
Meanwhile, I hope that everyone will have fun. 3nodding
Ideki · Wed Apr 20, 2005 @ 11:50am · 2 Comments |
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I would like to know what YOU think.
Because it's always important to know how others perceive you.
Then you can improve yourself. 3nodding
1. Do you like the way I look IRL?
2. Is there anything you'd like me to change about myself?
3. Is there anything you DON'T want me to change about myself?
4. Am I considered as a good friend? Explain why...
5. If I were a smiley, what smiley would I be?
6. Define my art style.
7. What song reminds you of me?
8. What typical anime character would I be?
9. Would you want me to be a member of your family?
10. If I gave you my address, could I trust you with it?
11. What is your most favorite trait found on me?
12. What is your least favorite trait found on me?
13. Would you put this on your journal?
Ideki · Mon Feb 28, 2005 @ 12:38pm · 2 Comments |
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Something I want to say/explain |
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I will do now something that I very rarely do.
I will talk about what I feel, and more importantly why.
Just because I need to write it somewhere.
I usually hate to complain about my life.
I don't think I am the whining type.
Life is hard, but some people suffer more than me, so I have no right to complain.
Also I do not like to annoy people with my problems. They have enought of their own.
So you don't have to read it if you don't want to.
Now I wish everyone a happy valentine day.
If you have someone you love near you, tell him what you feel.
Do not hesitate, because you might have no other occasion to do it.
And you will regret all you life.
Believe me I know.
And I will tell you why I know.
It's because my mother died almost 1 year ago.
And I have not been the best son I could have been.
Because of problems with our familly, and other things...
Last time I saw my mother alive was at Xmas 2003.
And it could have not happen if a friend of mine had not made me realise my own stupidity.
Because me and my mother fought a lot of time in the past, I was affraid to spend long time with her. Because I did not wanted to hurt her, and make her cry. (like I already did)
Believe me when I say that I loved my mother will all my heart. I could have never wish for a better mother than her.
It's just that when I was young, I was stupid and did not understood a lot of things.
I know what I did, but I can't change it, and I will keep regretting it all my life.
So now I am all alone.
People tell me that I am a freelancer, or this kind of things.
That I am lucky because I can easily change country,...
But I don't think they really understand how much it hurt to have no home where to go back.
To have no one waiting for you somewhere.
I can do all those things because I have nothing to lose, no one who care for me.
Around the time my mother died, I was interested in a girl here in japan.
We went to eat together a few times.
I thought that maybe she would accept to go out with me.
Then I had to go in france to take care of the funeral and everything.
That was a hard time for me, and I was very lucky to have a few friends to help me in france.
After I came back, I contacted that girl again, just to learn that she found herself a boyfriend.
I was not in a very happy mood at that time.
But my mother always told me to keep hope.
To continue no matter what.
So I am still here.
Because I can not fail my mother who put all her hopes in me.
Who sacrificed herself for me so I can have a better life than hers.
Around that time, I met a girl here on gaia.
We quickly became good friends.
We have a lot of things in common, and a lot of things that are different too (whidh makes things more interesting).
But there is something about her that I have never felt in my entire life before with anyone.
I am not sure how to explain it.
She can see right through me, and there is nothing I can/want to hide to her.
She thinks and feel like me, and at the same time different.
So we started to discuss about a lot of things.
Personnal matter, and others.
The more I discover about her, the more I want to know.
She has a very interesting and attractive personallity.
My mother once told me that I put myself inside an inaccessible tower.
That no one can reach me from outside.
And the thing that surprised me the most at that time was not that she was saying this. But the fact that it was true. I have been hurt so much in the past that I created this kind of protection around me.
When I was watching inside me, I was seeing myself inside a crystal tower.
I could see people in the distance being happy, and kept wondering why I could not be happy myself.
Often I wanted to cry and shout, so people could see me, and maybe spend sometime with me.
But I could not break the walls no matter how hard I tried.
I searched for a lot of solutions, but could not find any.
I thought that a girl would be able to break enought the wall to free me.
Just to find that no one wanted to try.
And it went on and on like this for many years.
And each year when Valentine Day was coming I was sad, because I was alone.
And I knew it was my own fault. I was just not be able to find a solution.
Until I met that girl on Gaia.
I don't know how or when it happened.
But now when I look inside me, there is no more tower.
The walls disappeared one day.
And I know it is her who made this happening.
Now I am still a bit sad, because I am far from her.
And when I do not hear from her for many days, I am worried that something happened to her. (or that she might have found someone else, nearer)
I like her very much. I care for her.
And I know she cares for me too as she told me.
But things are not easy.
First I am very far from her.
But I plan to move near her soon.
Also she says that she do not know if she want/can give me what I want/search.
I know what you feel, and I think I understand why.
I will not force you to anything.
It is your decision. I will respect it no matter what.
Of course I would be really happy if you would give me a chance.
I know you will read this, maybe not today nor tomorrow, but you will someday.
I know I have said it many times.
But I want to write it here and now until I can say it to you.
I like you with all my heart, and I thank you for all that you did to me.
Now, to all those that have read until now.
I hope you understand why not saying what you feel is not good.
I was lucky enought to be able to say to my mother that I loved her before she died.
I found the courage to ask a girl to go out with me. Even if I got rejected.
And finally the girl I like know how much I like her, and that I am ready to change my whole life for her.
Never hesitate, you might not have a second chance.
And all that you will have left are regrets that will hunt you for the rest of your life...
Ideki · Tue Feb 15, 2005 @ 03:49pm · 4 Comments |
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