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My Girl Friend That Turned
My Girl Friend That Turned
One Day I had a friend that almost became my GF that i thought was a great girl...and I accepted here for what ever she was or did...we had the times of our lives for the past days..we wrote notes to each other shareing secrets we never told anyone...then one day...when i came over for the first time we couldn't do much but we went to star bucks and drank a couple of Mocha Lights..after we sat down thats when "My Mistake" happend...we were talking and a depression topic came up...i told her in front of her sister that i did what my Friend Bobby C. was doing until...he passed...and then her sister looked at me and demanded that she wanted the shoe string...i didn't give it up...after so she was under alot of stress...so she walked away and talked to her friend on the phone...Witch left me with her...(My girl i liked more then a friend)
She Told me to sit down beside her....I Did...She cuddle up with me tight and huged me and told me these exact quotes..."Everything will be alright"...And never let me go until we left to drop me off at my house...it left me with so much grief when i saw her sad face in the car drive away....I couldn't help but call her on the phone a half hour later...she said she was mad...and wanted to talk to me...at the time i couldn't help cus my sleeping pills were kicking in...she said she had to go after words....around 3 hours later...she calls back saying...she had taken 79 pills...I was crying my eyes out for hours i couldn't help...she told me not to tell any one...I didn't...and i felt like s**t after words...
At the end of the call she said..."everything will be alright. I'm Going to give you a big hug tomorrow at school" I said..."But...but what if you don't wake up tomorrow?.. " she responeded after a pause "..I will.." I asked her " Will you stop this?" she said "Yes..." I said with a broken heart inside " Promise me you will!".....A Long pause awaited...the she finaly said..."I will stop"...then she hung up...Later on when I Couldn't sleep till the next morning...I walked into school looking for her but...nothing...After words i asked one of her friends...she smiled and said shes in the hospital...LIKE SHE DIDN'T GIVE A DAMN!!!...so after she told me...i snaped and ran to a corner of the lunch room and started crying my eyes out...I didn't know what to do...i couldn't help her...and i blamed myself through the whole week she was in the hospital...she woke up and i was releaved...and i was by her side thos days she was held in the suicide holding for another week..
Then after she finaly came back...I presented her with bright red roses...and she said thanks...but i saw something diffrent when she came back...she was much diffrent then before...she dosen't remmeber much about me...or what i told her in the notes...it just broke my heart to know and see that she...the girl i liked...turn into an unknown... ...It just toar me apart so much...i was never my self agian...she dosen't know how much i liked here...and every now and then...she won't even reconize me anymore...Its like the pills Destroyed her memmorie...
So by the next couple of days...she dosen't talk to me any more...so i asked if she was ok?...no respon...i tryed to figure out whats wrong and if she rememmbers anything...but she dosen't responed to any of the things i've said to her...like as if she dosen't know who i am anymore...then later...after a month had past...I talked to an old friend of mine that said her sister told him a secret about "her"...I've asked him what was it?...of course he didn't tell me but what was really ******** up was he was smileing and laughing with out a care and kept saying it was to good to to keep as a secret...even tho he still didn't tell me....
...after a couple hours passed...i went to the next piriod with "Him" in my class also...and started to break down...cus i thought she had did some thing cus of me...then he finaly wrote a note to me saying...."Ok dude..I didn't want to tell you this but "She" had become a lesbian now cus all the guys kept hurting her in the past...You never had a chance with her alright? so drop this s**t already! I'm not in the mood for you sympithy.."....I didn't know what to do after words cus i was in so much pain...after i got home i started cuting cus i couldn't help her...and now that I found out about this...it still haunts my mine everyday...
...I dunno what to do anymore till this very day...not all life has a happy ending...And i know i won't till i'm gone from this world forever... <3
..The End..
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