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I'm not going to name any names in this--if you're taking the time to read this, and if I'm ranting about you, you know it--but then, you probably do anyway, it's just that no one else has taken the time, or had the spine, to tell you what a p***k you're being, at least not to your face. Consider this my two cents. biggrin

Lately, it seems like a lot of my friends are hurting, and it can all be traced back to one self-absorbed, sorry excuse for a "friend", whose idea of friendship seems to be in how much they can abuse those bonds, using and taking advantage of their buds, and then turning around the second people stop kissing their feet, and bitching about how injust, cruel, cold and downright -mean- people are, and how they feel "shut out".

You know what I have to say to you? GET. THE ********. OVER. YOURSELF.

That's all there is to it. I look at the way you've never, in anything I've seen, done anything for these people, and I look at the way they've gone out of their way to make you realize that, up until recently, you were special to them--they did things for you, included you in everything, and never once badmouthed you, even when your behavior should have told them all how self-absorbed you really were.

But no, do you ever once take any blame on yourself? EVEN WHEN YOU CLAIM YOU'RE APOLOGIZING, IT'S MORE AN ACCUSATION OF HOW THEY'RE LACKING--a claim, allow me to point out, that's patently false. I love how you sit there and claim that you 'don't want to burden anyone' and yet you've publicly made cruel remarks to all of the people involved, and when they tried to approach you to explain, or to try to somehow 'win back' your "friendship" (yes, I use quotation marks on friendship, since you apparently don't really know how to BE a real friend, if your behavior is ANY indication), you lash out--sorry to say it, amigo, but that's not a friend, that's someone who's simply feeding off of the attention they perceive to be their due.

And, while I'm in this vein--it's far harsher, as far as I'm concerned, to spurn an apology of sorts and turn it into something to dig into another person, than it is for someone to be blunt enough, and honest enough, to point out when you're being an arrogant SOB.

I'm tired, of seeing you try to alienate and stomp all over my friends, and furthermore, it sickens me, because some people seem to buy your bullshit--you've done this before, and that person, I think stupidly, apologized and ran, accepting that you'd turned the whole group away from them. I hope that this time, people are a little less ******** obtuse, and see you for the pompous, whiny, attention-whoring little shithead you've PROVEN yourself to be, and don't repeat that mistake...because whatever people's faults may be, at least the people I've watched you abuse can claim that they're capable of real friendship, instead of the backstabbing, manipulation, and attention whoring that's your very own brand of loyalty.

And you know what? if not, I'll share a private smirk with the friends you've shunned, because I know that someday, those who chose to buy into your crap will regret it, when they finally see what I see...and I almost hope that by then, they realize what it's like, when the people they've kicked to the curb in order to satiate your massive ego may forgive them, but won't ever forget how easily they traded the time, effort, and emotion they'd invested into the relationship, for you, "prize" that you are..and as a consequence, there may always be some sort of barrier between them.

******** your lies. ******** your bullshit, and more importantly, ******** you for being dishonest enough to try to pass them off as genuine, or as badges of how much you "care". If that's caring, then you know what? I'm ******** GLAD that you don't "care" about me, because I don't have the patience to have tolerated that kind've bullcrap for nearly as long as everyone else apparently does.