everyone seems to.
my mother even makes fun of me when i cry.
i just want to go and live in a different house. I cant fully blame the way i am on them, but i cant say that they dont help. there fools and i hate them sometimes. I can blame them for such things as givving me gateways to my addictions. And now if i cant get to my addictions my anger isues come forth, I just want to give up but the cars keep honking pushing me forward. where i dont want to go, I just want to vear off and flip over and die. thats all i want in life, just to die.
Half the time i stay home just to sleep, its not the only serenity i have. i want to sleep forever. in that Damned dream state forever. My only unworriable serenity. where i wont have to care about someone coming and disturbing me, where i can be alone yet not gone and not just alone but more.
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