You ever notice how you can only lie to yourself for so long?
Well if anyone has been reading my MySpace journal you know what I'm talking about.. For those of you that haven't been, here's some insight.
I never did love Chris, he was just someone I used for a time in order to obtain company. I was happier when I was with anyone but him, but if I had to I'd hang out with him. The disgusting idea of the fact that I let him touch me makes me sick now. I mean.. he had the most disgusting habits, his breath was always rancid, he never spoke to me as if he loved me but more of a burden on his social calander.
What was I thinking?
Well here's a bit MORE insight.
I have loved Brandon for years.. and i mean years.. I was just never bold enough to say so. So I hid back waiting and waiting, eventually dealing with dumbasses such as David and Chris and well.. the other Chris. I kept hoping against hope that I would forget brandon and everything would go back to the way it was before, but it never happened that way. Now everything is fine though! We are together and I don't have to lie to myself, I can just be.
 Gothic Alice · Mon Dec 11, 2006 @ 12:06am · 2 Comments |
