gonk oooooooh boy. I think i am "in love"
This....^ is how i feel about Kenny. Purple and fuzzy. I've had this image in my head for a few days now...i was going to try and put it on paper with pastels...but i ended up doing it on MS paint earlier.
GAIA YOU STUPID a** b***h
*cries* gonk the stupid thing!!! It deleted everything i had typed up!! T.T Time to recap what i had before i have to go to bed...
We were talking about purple, and its connotation. Mt first thoughts were royalty. thats what purple usualy means to me, but this didn't fit at all how i was feeling about him. So i asked what purple ment to him.
...he said it is like longing, its cold yet warm...like what you want is just out of reach. Longing. And...i have this one thing for a mood neclace i got. It says that purple means love on it. Both match how i feel.
I....i love him. I really think i do. That deep seated tugging feeling on my heart i feel when i think about Andy, or some of my closer freinds and family. I'm feeling that for him too. Just that...genuine caring feeling, hopeing he is feeling ok, or atleast as ok as he can feel... and i'm full of longing for him. Not only just the simple feelings of wanting to be with him....but also the longing to make him happy, the wish that i could do something more for him to make him feel ok. Wishing i could get a smile on his face.
But at the same time....
As badly as i want to be with him....i don't want to unless he honestly is feeling something back for me. And anyways...i wan't to wait this out a little longer...make sure it isn't going to fade anywhere. Its like a slow and steady heartbeat for him, its there, and sometimes it beats and then falls still for a moment before it beats again.
Beh why can't life be simple?
i gotta get to bed. *waves* i'm out.
 HatsuharuRocks · Tue Nov 07, 2006 @ 05:40am · 0 Comments |
