Everything is just nothing to me... My mind sees everything although as I'm in a constant blurr, a dreamlike state of which I cannot escape... I don't know why I exist, I forfill no needed task... I've listened to too many humans... I'm not even good enough to be considered one of them...
I have to find a way to claim my soul back... All of my friends have changed too... Or, maybe just one friend has changed, which means the world too me... Dave has become less witt and more of a nerd, I suppose his change isn't too great, but it's far better than mine... He's become the goodie goodie, while I have become the outcast... He wanted me to roleplay in some guild, but it just got so boring... I can't follow any rules or authority... I've grown too old to rp anymore.
Anyways Tommy, or Tomy, or shell of a body, hopefully when you re-read this things might have got better for you... I wish I could love you Tommy, but... I forgot how to love a human being...
I've got to go to my house in stafford... I'm riding my bike there, because I need the exercise. So I'll see you later...
P.S. Andy might come over Saturday... I hope I get to see him... I haven't seen him in forever and maybe being near a different person who doesn't insult me would cheer me up...
 Shielsia · Fri Nov 03, 2006 @ 05:36pm · 0 Comments |
