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When I first joined Gaia, I met a boy who was very special and we wrote letters to one another for a while. This was the longest letter he wrote me:

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The eye of the heart is a funny thing. Physical eyes see physical objects, expressions, and so on. But the heart's eye sees into the soul and heart of a person. It lets you see someone's deep down fear or their yern to find someone who won't use them as some krutch or a doormat.

When you lose your sight it's like losing a limb. You can still feel it there, just in a different form. When I started to lose my sight I felt different, I now know that it was fear. A different fear though, more like being afraid of never being able to see someone you love again or never being able to see what the one you finaly marry is going to look like.

But, in time, you learn not to be afraid as much. Still some mornings when I wake up, I can't see, and I start to become paranoid. But then I think of all of the other times this has happened. So I just get out of bed and find a light. I make sure my eyes are closed and I turn it on, then I can be either happy and at ease, or then I can finaly go tell my mom that I've finaly lost my sight completely.

The eye of the heart lets me see things that others usually don't, the heart. Usually a person's heart is grey, or a dark shade of anything. But, very few have good hearts, and fortunatly, the one girl who's my best friend, is bright and has very slight spots of dimness. I've been talking to her and unfortunatly we're not giong to date.

I just finaly found someone like me and a person I can easily trust and care for, and there's no spark in her heart for me. I want there to be so badly. Sorry, this kind've happened recently and she says that I'm the only one who care for her, but she's not going to lie to herself and force her heart to like me in that way, and I respect that. I just wish that if I cared so much for her, that the spark would come to her.

That's the only bad thing about my heart, I care too much for the ones I love and they see that they're pushing me, they just let me drop, :sigh: I wish that life wasn't so tough at times. Well good luck in your own life, if you show someone that you care they'll appretiate it, even if they don't show it. Thanks for reading my post, have a good day, everyday. TTYL.

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Now, this letter could be hoax or just some funny made-up story, but it is my most prized and precious letter. I saved it and I took it out to read from time to time before I first tried to leave Gaia. Augustin doesn't write to me anymore, so i'm assuming that he finally went blind. The last I heard from him was around December...then he never wrote back. He was my first friend from Gaia and I miss him so very, very much. I forgot that I had this letter. It was only yesterday did it occur to me that I had something of his saved in my saved box. Reading it makes me nastolgic.

Augustin, I hope that you're okay wherever you are and I miss you so much.