All I've been doing is working left and right. Working for a commission for one person, chemical equations for school, contests for gold to help my boyfriend and other people out. It really starts to take a toll. If I'm not working all day then I'm passed out throughout night and can't function the next morning. I either need sleeping pills or something to keep me away for all hours of the night and completely aware...though I'm doing that anyway so that's a worthless contradiction.
Been feeling unlike myself ever since the middle of the week. Maybe it's just stress or being overworked. I dunno. Doesn't really matter would be my guess. I'll get over it, alway do.
Anyway, sickness seems to be knocking me on my a** as well, just like everything else. If it's not tearing my arm off it's stopping my heart. Heh, most teens have to go through puberty and wondering if they're gonna have a bad acne case next time they see their boyfriends. I have to wonder if I'll even be able to function. s**t happens though I guess. Gotta get over it and move on. Move on...of course I have. I listen to my own words, I'm not a complete hypocrite. It just lingers. Don't want to disappoint him, almost afraid I will or already have and if I get worse....I'll be weaker. I can't be weaker, have to be someone that's capable of holding it together even though I think I'm failing.
Now that I've actually typed it out I feel like all the things I hate. The People, the users, the ones that b***h about how life's so bad. Maybe Vince was right. Just as he's not better...just excpetional...maybe I am too. Just like the rest. Just another person to be counted.
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