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I hadn't realized how long it had been since I really cared about activities on this site. However, in light of recent events (which will be included) I'll probably be here ALOT more. So why not write in the journal? Better get started, then...

Besides my usual issues a few months ago, I was having worse girl troubles than usual. I met her on this site, actually, and her name is Samantha. (Everyone calls her Sami) I always really liked her and was courting her for quite some time, but she never paid that much attention. Eventually I just gave up. Made me feel pretty low, but no big deal. Well I decided to PM her one day out of the blue. One thing let to another and we ended up texting each other alot. I was told she had a boyfriend and that all my attempts to date her went completely over her head (She thought I was joking), or else she would have got with me. Of course, this made me wanna pull my hair out, but she seemed so happy with her boyfriend and keeping in mind my terrible luck with women I wasn't too broken up about it. At first, anyway...

A few things about Sami that prove to be issues: Her family was pretty broke, she's white and I'm black, I'm 3 years older than her and she's still a minor. Also, I grew up in a community and lifestyle she has only HEARD about in frikken rap.

Well, after realizing my previous actions were not joking at all she really wanted to be with me. And now we see where the problem came. She had a boyfriend already, yet she almost wouldn't let me stop hitting on her. The fact that I couldn't have her and she wouldn't let that go was REALLY hard for me, especially because I had to force myself to stop trying to be with someone I really cared when even SHE didn't want me to. Luckily this part smooths out quite a bit for me...

Me and her decide it's wrong to keep these feelings from her boyfriend, so she tells him about all of what happened. Well HE decides it's best if we all meet in person to talk about this. Now, they did live in a different state as me BUT the city they were in is right next to my city, so a two and a half bus ride (On two busses) is all it took. Now, I was pretty shook up and nervous. I just knew it was a bad idea to go see them. (Or so I thought) It was my first time ever seeing either of them in person and I was hitting on this guys girlfriend AND I had never actually been out where they live alone before. But I decided to wing it and follow my heart. Turns out it wasn't that bad. I got to see Sami and didn't have to defend myself against her little creepy loser boyfriend's jealousy. (I was afraid he would try to hurt me if I came there. I wasn't really afraid of being hurt, more so afraid I'd have to hurt his little a**.)

I need to shorten this very long story up a bit. Sami's boyfriend at the time told her about a love interest he had once before after I left them. Apparently it was enough to have her choose me over him, so after a day or two she left him and got with me. Of course, I was very happy (And very VERY surprised) but I also felt pretty bad... At the time I had no problem with the guy and she constantly thought about her time with him. Naturally I felt I ruined her happiness because I always blame myself for the misfotune of my loved ones because I'm insecure like that. The thing about all this is I realized early in our relationship (even when we weren't dating) I was completely in love with her. Her constant thoughts of her ex bothered me more than I would like to admit, causing much controversy between us. Well that smoothed out quite nicely as well, because apparently Sami, her ex, and her mom were all in touch and he kept pissing Sami off more and more, to the point that now she can't stand him. (Heh, frikken sweet.)

Here's where NBC needed to have their camera crew down here and record our lives for a hit soap. Eager and happy about my new found love, I bring my friends around Sami and my family, all that good stuff. My good friend (And previously mention in other journal entries) Cameo lives near where Sami was. I was a tad nervous to bring him around Sami for a few reasons. 1)He can be a bit violent. (A bit? Understatement of endless proportions) 2)Grew up like I did, only quite a bit rougher. 3)He's the kinda anime-ish, really skinny, cool, long hair, dark, good lookin guy I am SO not. (That's what Sami's "type" was) In fact, I'm the oppisite. Large and muscular, peaceful, romantic, very short hair, average looking, and black. Now cameo is black too, but he is also half Japanese so ya know... He can pass for something else >.< KEEP IN MIND I am NOT calling anyone racist or shallow or anything like that. Just saying that people have a "type" they look for, and frankly what I am just isn't what most women want. (Especially ones from a role-playing anime community website) But I decided to get over my insecurities because I knew Sami and her mom would like my friends. Besides, it's not like I don't trust any of the people mentioned. I am just a jealous p***k sometimes. Well I was absolutely right, but luckily it didn't bother me as much as I thought it would. Here's the thing; Sami's mom REALLY liked him. And he REALLY liked her. After much time and though THEY ended up dating! So one of my best friends is dating my girlfriends mom whom is old enough to be his mom.

Cameo is usually a man whore, to put it frankly. BUT with his last girlfriend I turned him into a gentle, never cheating, never lying doormat like myself. Meaning his ex walked over over his a** like what is frequently done to me and never him. I bring this up because he swore he would never do that sh-- again, yet with Sami's mom he is. I mean... he truely cares for her. In the same loving way I do for Sami. The same way I could NEVER see from him just a year ago. Meaning I have no problem with their relationship. It makes me very happy, actually, no matter how odd it may be.

HERE'S where it gets sh--ty. (I know, finally) I'll just spit it all put real quick. Try to keep up.

Being broke Sami and her family have to move away to be with family for financial support very far away from me. This sucks for me AND Cameo, now. Sami's cousin Becky and her fiance Keven have been real cool to me, Cameo, the family, all that. BUT! Becky has a twin sister named Amanda who is evil and lies all the time. Keven has a brother named Tony who... well, does everything bad imaginable. Tony and Amanda end up getting together and engaged as well. For some reason Sami's relatives seem to have a problem with Becky and Keven, but not Amanda and Tony for some reason. Well Becky and Keven decide they MUST get married before Amanda because "they deserve to". (I know, wtf) So Becky's wedding is planned THE DAY BEFORE Amanda's because on that weekend the family is there. Wanna know why the family is there as well? To help Sami and her mom and sister move back! So in the course of 4 days Sami's relatives get there, go to 2 weddings, then move a family out of their house. And I have to be there for all of this or else I can't see my love off...

End of story: (This is alot of info, right?) The weddings and the moving went down without TOO many problems. Me and Cameo met most of the family and didn't have to kill Tony. (We didn't meet him) Me and Cameo watched Sami and her family leave and now I get to the present. I have not talked to Sami in awhile except like... 5 or 6 texts every once in awhile... I miss her more than I can believe. It's all I think about. BUT soon she is getting the internet and a phone at her new house, which is why I'm returning to gaia! (Took me awhile to get to that, huh?)

To answer any friend's questions on this site or anyone else who cares:
1. Yes, we are still dating although it's long distance.
2. Yes, Cameo is still dating Sami's mom.
3. Yes, I do love her. More than anything in my life.
4. Yes, I plan to make this work no matter how hard it may be.
5. Yes, so does Cameo.
6. Yes, I do love her more than my Nintendo DS. (If ya don't know, don't ask)