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I am pretty fed up with everything. I just don't know what to do anymore. I need to get a new job. Which means I'm gonna have to get off my a and start driving more and actually learn how to parallel park. I'm just scared of the way people drive and it pisses me off. I also have to give my dad$1000 so he'll buy the car.I think i want a white Scion. Like one of the box ones XD I also need to stop procrastinating AND GO FILL OUT MY COLLEGE APP whee I just never feel like it when I get off or no one can drive me because my dad works all the time. If I get this accomplished at least I'll be pretty relieved. Then theres the topic of how I need new friends. Not on Gaia I like those,just in real life. sad I'm a very shy person so it gets in the way of making new friends and most of my friends have cars and I feel like I am usuing them or burdening them in some way to hangout so I usually just sit in the house and play Gaia. I treat them to food and pay gas but I just still feel bad. Money is usually the reason I just stay in the house I usually have none. I'm going to have to work more soon so i can save to get this car and just gtfo of Burger King. I went off today because the manager scheduled me to 4 even though it said 3 o clock 3 days prior. I went of about how I wasn't staying and how he needs to tell people not just assume. Yes I know I have a tendency nowadays to come in late(but I seriously don't care anymore sad ) but I bust my a when I'm there. Whens the last time I called out? Thats right stfu.But back on the subject of friends I just feel like i cannot be myself. I live in a hicktown where people treat me ignorantly anyway and some people still out of high school think I'm gay so that doesn't help. Come up to my face and ask don't be like OMG I don't want to be your friend because I think you are. I wish I wasn't so shy and I wish that it were easier for me. Most of my close friends are going back to college next week. And still I'm too lazy to apply. Robbie my best friend will be an hr away so thats fine I'll visit when Korrinna does or when I get my car. sarah is going to Missouri. That saddens me but oh well she'll be at Towson next year and I go to Towson all the time so thats fine. Abby works and so does Ween so I won't be able to see many people again. I think Nick,Barry and Adam think I'm a jerk because I'm so reclusive. They didn't do anything I just haven't been in the mood to socialize. Stress and Depression will do that. I need to get on the subject of Shelly which REALLLLLLLLLYYY pisses me off. rolleyes I can't deal with it. We were so close she was my second best friend. Yes we had sex in a couple drunk instances but with that aside we were like brother and sister. We fought about dumb st but we were still there for eachother. I've stopped her from committing sucide many a time. I've given her hours and hours worth of advice. I know that she has had a **** up life since her dad got out of jail and hasn't seen her and her grandpa died but that was 5 years ago. I can't stand people who use the same excuse to justify their actions(Yes I know sometimesI do too and right now I can't stand myself lmao) She has this new immature fat hick boyfirend who just turned 18. He's obnoxious,and stupid. At first I thought he was fine but he hates all of us(shelly's friends) because we've had sex before. Way before your time buddy get over it. He thinks that everytime we see her were having sex or getting drunk and doing drugs. When she's with me we are usually checking our myspace,walking to safeway and eating. then we get bored and do the same thing at Abbys house. The st is so G rated now it's not even funny. Jealous tard I say.He's trying to control her and take her away to another city and just feeding her 500% of I want to see you every waking minute I love you you can't hang out with anyone else. ****** THAT. I'll say this now I will dump any human being I date in a second If they ever do that to me. Thats why I don't date. I wouldn't/couldn't see the person every day bascially all day. I'ts psychotic in my opinion. The last time we hung out was when he abducted her from my house a month ago. But yet he says we hang out too much. rofl When I was depressed and crying last week I told her we needed to talk and straighten some things out because I feel like we are growing aprt but y'know Ryan and eating crabs by the pond comes first. then when she sais he was on the phone with me he told her he was breaking up with her and she was crying. OMFG. The kid is ugly and has a 50/50 personatlity. She says she's fallen in love but Past boyfirends who have been worse are starting to look better. I would have said ok step then but she chases his car begging him not to leave. The Shelly i know would have said peace. Would have cried later but thats about it. seriously this kid is nothing worth dealing with the st she deals with at all. But yet she loves him and obviously even though they have been together for a month and a half he comes before everyone. he has her wrapped around his finger and when he gets her where he wants her I'm definalately not helping this time. My efforts for 5 years have been for nothing obviously so I'm done. They are fiances now. neutral Give me a break. She also thinks she could be pregnant. I don't feel sorry for you use a condom. It's simple. Is the b***d allergic? No? Then oh well on you. Plus she has birth control so I really don't understand. I think it's going to be hard because of all we have been through but I don't see us being friends much longer. I can't take it anymore. His bullshit. Her total bullshit. Everyone thats knows me knows everything stresses me out your problems and mine,I'm extremely sensitive so every little thing gets me upset.Get this today at work she was supposedto be there at %am and used the excuse oh i thought i was still suspened for not showing up Sunday. bh you know you wern't I showed Drew the text message LOL I was already pissed about the whole another hour there thing but I didn't mind doing d-thru. I just wasn't staying till 4. Drew tells her to come in at 11-4. She does but is like omg I have a doctors appt I think i'm pregnant I can't stay till 4. Well I'm not and no one else knows d-thru so your staying. mad* If it was really important she would tell Drew right? Well she tells Ashely and wants Ashely to tell Drew. We both told him that he should just fire her. Me and Ashley worked so hard to get her her job back and for what? Fire her now I don't care. But anyway shes all like OMG I need to tell my boyfriend he wants to see me i'ts so serious. I thought you had a doctors appt? Drew just acted like he didn't know what we said and put her on break and later put her on d-thru. When I left she was throwing a tantrum. Serves her right if he wants you to make all this money for your own appt. His job at staples alone aint gonna help. C'mon are you serious? I make more than the kid working 8 hrs. mrgreen She expects Drew to let her leave and he agreed with me about why I wasn't staing:Shellys reasoning and how Guy just can't change the schedule and not tell me. I'm glad I didn't stay I'm on d-thru all damn day tomorrow anyway. For like 5 hours. cry What makes it worse is that Even though she was suspened most of the week she's OFF TOMORROW! Your b***d boyfirned can wait an hour for you tyo get off. You had enough free time being suspended to see him. And you have ALL DAY TOMORROW. But surely it will kill her since she has to wait a whole hour? Pathetic. I just really need to get my st straight and make new friends basically. Ruehl · Wed Aug 16, 2006 @ 08:26pm · 1 Comments


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