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Nothing Is Ever Good Enough....

nothing is ever good enough in their eyes. I try to change, I try to be as modest as possible, but guess what, I'm still 'Full of Myself'. I don't care. i was trying to explain, but that doesn't really matter, now does it? Everything is riding on the appraisal of our house, we'll get the statement sometime soon. if we don't get it in time..... why bother even trying to go to Japan, even though I know it'll never happen? The pills and vodka are kcking in.... maybe I should OD..... if I do..... I'm sorry my beautiful Kendra, it was fun loving you while I could, but if I do OD, remember.... I love you.... Overdramatic over a little fight right? this has been going on all my life.... always not good enough, even when I try my best.... who the ******** cares....