Unhappy tonight, mortality.....work anxiety @#$% ..... depression....extreme self loathing....pain because of anxiety based picking scratching peeling of skin.
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I desire so much, but yet here I am. I was born my sister was not.
I so wish she was here. She would have been every hope an dream of our Mother.
She would have been so much smarter than I. More able an strong than I could ever be. Maybe she would even have found a way to make our Father love us....