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So I’m back at home now...It was kinda awkward sitting in the car with my parents on the way over, my mom was crying and it made me feel really bad. The good news is that they're taking my threat to leave seriously this time and they're trying they're hardest to make me want to stay. My mom re-arranged the basement so now half of it is gonna be mine. The other half is reserved for our exercise equipment but I suppose that's ok because I like to exercise as well, plus there's no other place to put it. There's still tones of boxes everywhere (mostly junk) that still needs to be thrown out or donated but I suppose that's ok as well, I don't really mind considering how much work they've done for me already. The only bad(ish) news is that most of my own stuff has to stay upstairs because it's just too heavy to bring downstairs. But that's ok as well because there's plenty of other dressers and stands (etc...) downstairs, and they're all pretty old (which I like). I'll even have my own sitting room with a couch and a T.V. AWESOME!!! Nothing is really connected yet, but that's ok wink my parent's are also gonna bring my computer downstairs along with all my pets. it's actually way more then I expected lol, they were gonna get me my own fridge and microwave but I don't really want that, I mean I’m not so much of an invalid that I can't come upstairs to eat smile anyways I’m pretty happy with it, it's gonna be kinda weird the first few nights tho...my dad's horse collection had to be on my side of the basement (I love horses), but I can just imagine waking up in the middle of the night with a million eyes staring back at me *shivers*. I’m sure I’ll get used to it tho wink

Anyways tomorrow Sab and I are going to the stampede! Yay! It’s gonna be so much fun. I’ve been kinda upset these past few days, even tho I didn't really let on that I was, so the stampede will help me to start feeling better about the situation I’m in.

Yesterday Sab and I went to Lauren's for a BBQ. It was nice seeing her again (I haven't really seen her for like...2 years) but it was really awkward. Mostly I just sat staring at the fire and not saying anything. Lauren hardly spoke and neither did Sabrina lol. It was weird cus her parents were there (they're nice tho) and then some weird friends (a couple with they're 12 year old kid) of her parent's came, and they were pretty obnoxious. It was kinda funny cus Lauren's step-dad and the one guy were taking about being homophobic, and Sab and I were just like ehhhh...and then the guy asked Lauren if gay ppl were allowed in schools lol. Anyways after listening to her step-dad reacting about gay ppl, I came to the conclusion that Lauren hasn't told her parents she's bi. Anyways Sab and I left early cus no one was really talking and I was really nervous and all fidgety (god, I’m so shy...). I ono, but when we told Lauren we we're leaving I think she was kinda upset, but since she wasn't talking to us I’m not sure if she really was, maybe she was just nervous, or maybe she just doesn't like us lol.

Anyways I should go since I’m starving!!! I wish I was connected to a feeding tube 24/7, I’m always so hungry!