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I gotta hand it to myself I liked the last journal entry I made here two years ago. Its crazy how fast that time can fly when you dont think about certain things.

Im currently selling almost everything in my inventory except a couple items that I swore I would never get rid of. Which kind of contradicts my next statement. By selling everything and clean slating gaia I feel it's going to close a chapter of my adolescence. A chapter of my life that held bittersweet memories, feelings I realized I held on for far too long but in the recent years I've gotten better in some places and not so great in others.

At this point in my life at the current age of 26 I have a better understanding of being an adult and getting my life together. I always based my pace on the success of others and just this year let that go!! Man that's one less stress and nonsense to deal with! I actually have a plan for my future and for my retirement something that I feel is somewhat obtainable rather than moving to another country or visiting another country!! So much money for myself and something I can't do alone! Letting go of things and looking forward to others has made life a little easier to bare.

It's okay to accept certain things in life. It hurts it's painful at first but honestly in the long run you'll feel better. I really hope for myself that I am in a better place physically and mentally all around. Life has a good way of being quite the burden to bear. I've learned to live for myself be a little more selfish in ways, but selfless in others. Im still learning to love myself starting with my health, making better choices. Self affirmations and lifestyle changes. I go at my own pace, and everyone has their own. Another lesson I've learned. (Also for the love of god take care of your credit good lord I cannot stress enough I learned this waaaay late in life)

Gaia was really fun back in the beginning when it was still a fresh website. I've ventured on to other pastures. And like the others I have left this one is another.

I don't know why I suddenly feel emotional, but thanks self for working on the best you, you can be, even if others don't see it or acknowledge it you have yourself for support. Keep going, I am rooting for you. You can do this you got this, you're the best, and will be better.

Take care, and good luck. Nah no luck, good efforts.