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So today was pretty good i guess. First good day that I’ve had in years because depression got me ******** up. At first, I wasn’t really going to do anything at all. Just lay in bed depressed as ******** like always. But then after i ate dinner, or rather lunch, i got a burst of energy and motivation to just leave the house. I put on my best outfit and even did my makeup and hair.

At first, my mom and i just drove around the city aimlessly. Car rides relax me because the stimulation of movement calms my adhd. Then she decided that she wanted to get a drink and that we should go to wing bucket. Ive never eaten there before or been inside, so finally it was something new to experience in this boring old town. We sat down and had some alcoholic beverages, I can’t remember the name of the drinks but they were tasty as ********; i had a strawberry drink with rum and a blue raspberry one while she had two of the same mango ones. We drank and had some good laughs and for once we didn’t argue. It was an experience getting drunk with my mom i guess. Everything was funny to her and she laughed at everything while i just smiled.

Today was a good day and I’m grateful. Tomorrow i see my psychiatrist and hopefully he can increase my concerta and maybe switch me from gabapentin to Lyrica. Other than that, i think I’m good.