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My mother has to take alot of medication, for her back and her depression. Last night she accidently took all of her evening pills twice, we didn't know untill this morning. This has never happened before. She's not in any pain or anything, just really out of it. Her words are slurred, her mind has slowed, she has troubble walking, and her eyelids are all red and puffy, most of the time her eyes are half closed. After I saw her I curled up on the couch and cried. Mind you it's the morning and i haven't taken my own medication yet, but still. This has really upset me. As much as I dislike her, she's still my mother.

It makes me even more sad to imagine what she had to go through with her own mother, who had a brain tumor, deteriorated befor her very eyes. It wasn't even reconized untill she was almost dead. My gradmother was in the hospital for years, years when my mother was in her late teens. To see a mother in such a weak state just rips you apart.

Right now, my mom, is just laying in bed, she has been for the last few hours. She'll get better as the day goes on but I can't help but cry and cry.