Hey. Do you want to know one reason why I hurt so badly? I won't tell you the main reason, but a side effect one. Okay, this one is because I don't have any really good friends that I see everyday. There is one, but I don't get to see her that often. My other friends have other friends and they don't tell me anything anymore. They also never listen to me, when I'm just trying to keep them from making the huge mistake I did, but do they care? No.
Maybe that's because I only told 2 of them my big mistake. That mistake is one I'll never forget, and the one that I want to the most. I told my one real friend, and she listened and helped me partially. The other, SHE FORGOT! Seriously, I need to have her get a catscan, but you think she could have remembered that!
Anyway, I just wanted to get that out. It's so much. It's like I can't tell anyoene what happened when it's killing me. I can't tell my family, because they would never understand. I can't tell most of my friends, because I can't trust them. The 2 people I can talk about it with are God and my friend Lindsay. I never see Lindsay, and I need to stop keeping this a secret between me and God. I need to tell people, so I can be myself. Unless they know, I can never be me.
 ShadowLOTW · Tue May 30, 2006 @ 10:35pm · 0 Comments |
