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... feeling this gloomy. I can't really say that I hate my life. My life is good, a roof over my head, food to eat, a car to get places. I have everything I need here at home, but why do I feel so gloomy anyway? Is it because I'm lonely? Is it because I'm 26 and have not accomplished anything? Is it because I can't cope with the transition into adulthood? It might be all of these things. It might be some of these things. All I know is, I'm gloomy and I can't help it.

It's been a struggle since I graduated high school. 18 and naïve. The thing that was hard then was trying to let go of my antics from high school and become an adult and make a life of myself. Oh, how I wish to turn back time and do things over again, so that I wouldn't have anything to regret.

Now, what if there is a way to turn back time? I honestly think I would do everything the same. Nothing would change. So, on the other hand, I shouldn't go back in time because it would be a waste of time. But, if I could change the past, I should change myself in the present first.

Heh... trying to rationalize my childish fantasies.... Maybe, this is what it's like to become an adult.

Anyway, that's all for now.

Jep, out.