Looking back, I can see how foolish I actually was when I wrote most of these journals. I felt very angry back then and perhaps I've mellowed out some over the years. Or perhaps it has turned into a different sort of frustration. The keynote in all of this is that when I look back and read some of the things that I wrote, I know I was being very foolish. Voicing my opinion on what is stupid and not was foolish. Not that I'm wrong, but it was very reckless and clumsy of me to put it down, even if it was only read by a very small, few people on my friend's list. Considering all that I've been through, writing them down was a mistake...just like it was when I gave up on so many friends. Dumb Dumb Dumb but that's the past and now is the present. Whoever reads this will be in the future and I'm sure I'll change even more then. Hopefully, I can start writing, even if its just these journals and maybe, just maybe, regain some amount of self from them.
 Chaotica Leonus · Thu Oct 17, 2013 @ 03:31pm · 1 Comments |
