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the most eventful thing to day and most stupidest .
well lets star this from the begining.
;ast year myy freshman year i found out i was bi.
n/e way theyer was this girl on the bus.
id heard of her being gay but i didnt know who see was.
id heard her name billions of time without realizing it was her .
but anyway i used to take my gameboy to school .
id sit on the bus and play it cause in r/l im not much of a talker except for when im wih tony but he dosent ride my bus.n/eway she sat by me every day even when there were like 10 people on the bus and seats avalible.
i quite enjoyed her company so of course i didnt mind.for one thing i thought it was cause of my game boy she alwys ask me to let her play or show her how or tell her about what im playing or doing.
well i started noticing stuff like these suductive stares she has eye like no one knows these deep brown ... i think you get the pic well anyways she stoped being so meek with her approch .then i started liking her not htat i hadt liked her be for or other girls or nothin lke that iv always been this way but i didnt give it a second thoughtwell one day she gave me her number and told me to call i did but then id notice she never called me so i stoped.and thhen she stopped sittin by me and stuff well as much as she did not completly.and at the end of the year someone told me shhe lked me so i asked her and she said no..
after that i stoped calling completle over the summer...

well this year (sphomore) she asked me why i didnt call she said it had to be "mutaul" now as i said b4 iv been the main one calling and i dont like that the way i am i dont want the other person to know i like them alot
for example i ant thenm to know i like them a lil but on the inside im crazy for them (kinda like inuyash but a lil softer) .i truthfully when i like someone id do anything in my power to make them happy or do what theyll ask esecally a girl.

well she told me she had a g/f over the summer that she got into a fight with and beat her up(i know the g/f so no surprize there).and after that i mealted for her like popcycle on a hot summer day.
(the g/f)kinda made me a lil pissed tho that she could hit a thing so beautiful.but thats besides the point.

for a while we talked pretty wel then it strted to slack off and lik i said if come hlf way and you wont do the same o well.but i cant do that with her it like ....i cant descibe it
anyway today on the bus i started to babble to her and i told her i liked her like a fool even tho i do i dont want her to know completly how crazy i am for her but i coudnt help it for a split sec whatever i thought came ou of my mouth..

well im done for now i see what happens 2marrow.
oh yea and id like some advice if anyone reads this id relly appreceate (s/p)it.