my fish is going to die.
for some reason, I'm taking it really hard.
I think the idea of a living companion is just very appealing right now (last year at this time, it was the last thing I wanted...), and for it to leave me when I feel myself already relying on it for help would not be good.
it's a trooper, for sure. right now it's trying to fight its way to the top of the bowl... can't make it, of course, but it's trying. hopefully it will either recover or die; i don't like this in-between. If it was a cat or a cow, I'd be begging for it to be shot.
so, I'm trying to think ahead. since realizing that I DO desperately need a fish now, if this one dies I'll wait until October, have my family bring me one of our bigger fish bowls, and I'll buy a new one. or two. maybe a betta instead of goldfish?
also, WHO IS THIS RIDICULOUSLY HANDSOME MAN ANCHORING THE 5 O'CLOCK NEWS AT HOME?!
I can't wait to have my own apartment. not a day goes by where I don't wish I could do something or other... today it was have cooking stuff. yesterday it was a bed on the floor (because I smoked my head rather hard on the loft haha...). tomorrow it will be a cat or something.
*sigh*
bed. I'm beat. station again tomorrow, can probably expect another entry of boredom if my focus wanders again. since I got absolutely nothing accomplished today, the pressure's on for tomorrow.
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