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Random topic time! dramallama
Ahh, that was strange.. anyways,

I personally don't like guys. stare
No offence to any guys reading this. It's just that, I naturally don't like them.

No, I'm not lesbian. I suppose I haven't reached the stage in life where guys are interesting. To me, they're still gross pieces of flesh breathing the same air as us females. mad

And yeah, I am extremely biased and sexist. I apologize for that. confused

But anyways, I do have people every now and then asking me if I'm lez or not. Let's get this straight from the get-go, I can get attracted to guys, I just choose not to. (Also, I mean no offence to bisexual people. I actually think they're pretty darn awesome. biggrin )

Like, I don't have a bad history with any guy or anything. Ever since I was young, there hasn't been any guy that I've been extremely attracted to. I guess, to me, all guys really are the same. smile

And I know what you're thinking...
...okay, maybe I don't.
But if you're thinking all guys are not the same, you're right. I know that. I'm just saying to me, I don't hold one guy over the rest.

Well... I kind of do, but that's personal, right? redface Maybe I'll get to that in another entry when I've become comfortable to writing in this journal.

So basically, my opinion of guys is that they're normal. I don't get why girls of my age, or even younger, are getting so engrossed with it. It bugs me how girls nowadays, (not all of them, but quite a few of them) are like dating and doing THAT sort of stuff. To be honest, I don't know what I was implying when I said "THAT" but, well, yeah.

To me, this does seem like a touchy topic, but I just need something to write about, and I could definitely talk about this for a while. 4laugh

There really is no point to this entry, by the way. I just like typing things up, regardless of what I'm typing.

Like, maturity isn't finding a partner before you're ready. When I see two people together, I think, "well aww, that's sweet." whee It's all nice until drama. Come on, everyone doesn't like drama.

Drama is bad. talk2hand

I don't involved myself with drama. I'm the type of person who tries and fails to fix it. blaugh

There's this one guy in my class who constantly dates girls. I didn't realize it until this year, but my class does have some typical students. To the guy in my class who keeps dating girls, quit it. You're bugging the crap out of me. stare He's probably never going to read this anyways..

It's because of guys like that that I don't want to enter that part of life, the part where girls and guys go together. surprised

If you've read Kaichou wa Maid-sama, I'm like Misaki, except not as pretty, smart, or hardworking. Heck, we're not very similar. However, I do hold a similar hatred for guys as she does. The only difference there is that there's no Usui in my life. cry

Now, I'm a more open person than I used to be, say, two years ago. That's because I met a really friendly guy who gave me a totally new outlook on males.
...don't think wrong.
He was really easy to talk to, I ought to admit. And for some time, I kind of liked him, and during that period of liking him, I became aware of the good qualities in guys. rolleyes

Guys are humans too. I've come to realize that they aren't just walking flesh.

I seem to be at war with myself. I'm trying not to be a hypocrite, but I do have two selves. biggrin twisted

One side of me know that guys aren't as bad as I thought them out to be. blaugh Another part of me thinks that guys are traps, scream and that I shouldn't involve myself with them.

The current me is quite open. I like girls naturally. If it's a girl, it's a friend. I hope the girls have the same opinion about me. As far as I know, no girls in my class hate me. I'm like the Switzerland in the female side of my class.

Guys however, ehh. neutral I'm trying to think positively about them. I don't want a boyfriend, I don't even want to get too close to them. I just want to mix guys in with my group of friends. That why when one of my friends goes out with someone, I don't mind at all. cool

Guys just have to try a little bit harder for me to accept them. If any guy makes an effort to be my friend, that effort is all I need to accept. 3nodding That's what I mean by saying I don't naturally like guys.

Right now, there is no slots above the friend slot. The place I store my friends has infinite space, so yay for many friends! heart heart

I've had a few confessions already. They would go like, Lucia, I like you. Of course, I would coldly reject them. First off, no. Either stay in the friend zone or go away. evil Second, what is there to like about me? I've thought about this time and again, but I'll save that for another entry.

I don't think highly of myself. sweatdrop Inside, I know I'm just like everyone else. Outside, everyone views me as a smart, hardworking girl, and I feel the need to fulfill their expectations, like Sawako in Kimi Ni Todoke.

Dear guys I know, let's be friends, and just friends, nothing more, nothing less.

I hope one day, I'll find it in myself to go out and get someone. I still think I'm too young.

Call me judgmental, but I could tell when someone sincerely wants a lover, or when someone just feels like getting one to fit in. Being a girl, I know what it's like to like a guy. I know what it's like to want to be with someone. Maybe guys are the same too, hm? But when someone goes out with someone else who they hardly know, or hardly like, it bothers me, it really does. stressed

Growing up in a middleclass family, I did have access to stories where the prince and princess live happily ever after.

They're just stories guys, chill.

No, I don't believe that teens can feel true love. stare heart The thing I feel at least is a feeling of wanting. I want to be with someone, not need to be with someone.

Some people my age, I know they love someone. It's rare but possible.

Loving and wanting are two different things. They shouldn't both be dealt with similarly.

I hate when girls, or guys for this matter, say they love someone with all their heart. How is that possible? With all your heart means you love them above anything else, above your family because you want to start another family with that person, above materialistic belongings because being with that person is enough, above everything because that person means everything to you. That kind of thing just can't exist in people yet. burning_eyes

Maybe I just have no trust in humanity. sweatdrop

On the internet, stupidity spreads like a disease. Maybe I'm just noticing too many idiots?

But like, seriously, date when you're ready, not lonely. exclaim exclaim

ANYWAYS, back to the topic, guys.

In school, drama doesn't happen often. Maybe that's why when it does, it feels so irritating. scream

*SUPER DRAMATIC INHALE*

Bobba likes Bob, but Bob likes Roberta. Roberta likes Robert, but is already dating Bob. Roberta breaks up with Bob to get Robert. Bob dates Bobba to make Roberta jealous. Robert breaks up with Roberta because Robert knows how much Bob likes her. Bobba notices how little attention Bob pays her, and cheats on him with Robert. Bob then breaks up with Bobba, who apologizes. Roberta dislikes Bobba for dating Robert. Roberta dates Bob for revenge. Bob is happy. Bobba gave up and dates Robert for real. Bobba notices how likeable Robert is, and both Robert and Bobba become happy. Roberta is pissed, and decides to mess everything up, which in turns involves Julie, who has no knowledge of what the hell just happened. Julie likes Bob. Bob gave Julie a chance. They date happily. Roberta is forever alone...?

*ANOTHER SUPER DRAMATIC INHALE*

..Kay, I'm lost. But you get the idea. Drama is complicated, gonk and annoying. Just when I was opening up to guys, some dude in my class decides to flirt with my friend who was already dating someone. evil My friend broke up with her boyfriend to get with this dude, and they lasted, like, two weeks. That is considered drama to me. Who's fault is it? I like girls more than guys, so it's automatically the guy's fault. Plus, he was already dating someone from another school.

I'm too young for this crap. It's because of relationships that aren't mutual. As a girl, I can't blame my own gender, so it's the guy's fault. Sexist, I know, but that's honestly how I think.

Ahh, this entry is dragging on too long, isn't it? But anyways, the point is,
I don't naturally like guys. sad
If they try to be my friends, they're my friends. smile
Those who expect friendship but don't try are my enemies. evil
Girls are automatically my friends. 4laugh
I dislike drama. gonk
I dislike drama-causers, who I view as guys. stare
I don't hate all guys. rolleyes
Heck, I like a lot of them. 3nodding
The ones I don't really like, I really hate. scream
I hate them so much that I developed a murderous side. twisted

And that's it.

Thanks so much for those who actually read this unorganized entry made from irritation and honesty. It's such a messy entry, I know. Well, I'm done.

Till next time then?

I bet I just gained a whole lot more enemies.

Well, bye byes!





I also hate guys who touch my property. Don't touch my hair, my supplies, my work, my anything. I'm super sensitive about that kind of thing. Like:
*some guys touches my hair*
Me: *RAAAGE!* scream scream scream

Yeah...



Till next entry!
Woah, deja vu. I swear I said that before.. Eh, whatevers. cool