My voice had been kind of sore because I sing more often. It keeps my spirits up and makes me very happy. I miss my 1x1 roleplays, since I haven't been doing much of that lately. I want to roleplay with my friend, but she lives in a different country and I can only find time for Gaia at night now. I've mentioned this before, but this year is busy. But this too shall pass, right? I gotta keep my chin up.
Well, I went ahead and joined the GSA club. My mother would go nuts if she ever found out I was in it. My sister gave me a stern warning about not rocking the boat with my mom and what she loathes. I hate having to alternate between GSA and my Christian club, because I want to go to both! And now both of them are every-other-week for me.
I've finished all of my homework, so I spent the last thirty minutes catching up on Glee. I really love the character Kurt. He's so cute and handsome. x3 I'm so glad he returned to his high school; I was pretty upset he transferred to the other academy.
The things that keep me alive are: music and writing. Honestly, I don't know where I would be without these two. I should write an ode to them or something. And when something happens at school or people act like jerks, I also have one or two friends online to talk to. Next year I'm transferring to a different school, and I'm considering working at a soup kitchen so that I can keep in contact with Alice. I just gotta stop thinking that everybody's going to forget about me. If I had to make myself into a roleplay character, that would probably be what I would list under "Fears". (If I made myself a roleplay character, my greatest fault would be that I am too moody, and my fear would be "being forgotten".) It's mostly because I myself remember everyone. I may not be good at names, but I have a computer-like memory when it comes to people I've encountered... their face, or even on the internet. On Gaia I came in contact with an old friend, and he said that he forgot all about me. Sometimes I go back to my "dead roleplays" list and reminisce about all the fun times I've had with miscellaneous roleplayers in the past. I can just imagine myself hitting up this user I roleplayed with five years ago or something, and them being completely, "what is this creepy girl." And at my school, the beginning of last year, I hit it off really well with a girl for one day, but I had completely fallen out of her memory by the middle of the year. Would anyone notice at all if I just switched schools now?
And this time will be bigger
And brighter than we knew it
So watch me fly, we all know I can do it...
Could I stop my hand from shaking?
Has there ever been a moment
With so much to live for?
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Serene: To the General Public At Last
A few pieces of Ser's thoughts and life, which are carefully broken down from her life mosaic and preserved into this online journal. Read with care.
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