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I'VE BEEN RUNNING AWAY FROM ALL EMOTION FOR 5 YEARS
TRYING TO AVOID THE PAIN THEY CARRY
APATHETIC, I'M MORE THAN PATHETIC.
EMOTIONAL RILE UPS ALWAYS BLOCK MY MIND
LEAVE ME ON BREAKING LIMP TO BOUNCE ON

the whole ******** tree i call emotion.
been following me around
never leaving me alone, its already dried all my tears
and left me with depression.
it caught me when it took a new face.
love doesn't chase me, it's always just stalked me.
and i, with blinded eyes run straight into the knife i have been running from so long

the bitter sweet pleasures it brings
the emotional high, the groveling pain.
******** life, love luv.
without it i wouldn't be here.

******** HATE, THE DRUG I HAVE BEEN FORCE FED
BEING OUT OF PLACE
A PRISON IS MY HOME.
A JAIL IS MY SCHOOL
AND PAIN IS MY HOMELAND.
I CAN NEVER ESCAPE TILL I'VE SERVED MY TIME.
I'M SORRY GOD BUT A LOT OF TIMES I BELIEVE YOUR THEIR
SMILING AT MY ******** PAIN, MINE AND EVERYONE ELSES!

make me worry for every bit of it
i don't want any change in my life,
any change in you, the you that's caused me to be alive.
the you that saved me countless times.

BUT IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE THEN ******** IT
I'LL BE HERE, WAITING ON THE FUTURE
ACCEPTING WHO YOU ARE EVEN IF I DON'T LIKE IT AS MUCH
PHYSICALITY SHOULDN'T MATTER
SO THEN WHY AM I SO ANGRY?

is it because i want a clean girl?
without impurities or influences.
who's herself, nothing else. not what anyone else sees her as
who's skin is all the art they need
all the expression they want
i can only love your skin
i will forever despise what makes it unnatural.
forever despise that micro part of you.

THE PART OF YOU THAT WILL s**t O ME EVERY TIME I ******** SEE IT.
A PART TO BE HATED BY ME FOREVER BUT STILL ACCEPTED AS A PART OF YOU.

does that mean i despise a part of you?
a part of you that you want?
a part of you, you like?
i have no ******** clue but it can burn in lava
from the pits of hell, disintegrate into ******** nothing and
get eaten by the god damned devil for all i care.

every time i see it i will smile because i'll be seeing you.
every time i see it i will lose a little more
knowing it isn't you.

I WANT TO FIND IT
DESTROY IT
DESTROY EVERYTHING AROUND IT
BURN THE WORLD DOWN TO ASH
LEAVING YOU TO BE YOU.

think about it?
the problems you will now face?
expression doesn't mean s**t when compared with depression
you life mite just be ******** up now
the way i see you, changed from now to forever.
i don't think i can accept it
is too not like me
how would u like me if i wasn't
like me? if i was riddled with imperfections of metal, screaming at the world
and crying for it to end. wanting nothing but death
letting emotion cover my eyes and push me in a sea of it.

...your so ******** selfish. i'm such a ******** horrible person.
leave me be to end myself for giving to this world
expecting something in return.
giving my all to be a perfect person

I ******** TRY TO BE SOME1 ELSE
BUT NOTHING SEEMED TOO CHANGE
NOW IK, THIS IS WHO I REALLY ******** AM
NOT BETTER THEN THE CRIMINAL RATS IN THEIR PRISON DENS.
NOT BETTER THAN RUMOR SPREADERS
OR THE CAUSER OF PAINS

I CAN'T HELP BUT TOO HATE MYSELF FOR EVERY INCH OF MY MORAL BEING
MY MORAL STITCHING IS MORE ******** UP THAN EVERY1 ELSE.

some1 kill me
i can't do it myself
some1 hurt me
i'm too self loving and selfish to do it myself.

i just wanna die for being who i am.