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I'm severing the ties. iifaggot, your right. You were always right. I guess I tried to convince myself. xD

Now you can rub it in my face. No biggie. I shoulda listened, but I was hardheaded. Thanks for softening it up. biggrin

I'm gonna go and do things, that are going to help. We came a long way. LOL. Your the reason why it was locked up for a long time. Don't feel bad about it, it was a long time ago. x]



I gots ta lock it up again. Let me go and hit on anything and everything that moves? ;D
I only care about myself, nobody else. I'm gonna have fun. All light-hearted fun. Nothing serious anymore. It's not the computer's, it's the people that's using them. I feel like cleaning out my friends list right now. Start brand new. A fresh start? ;D


Yeah..That'll be good. Really good. Sometimes, when you face things head on too many times, it's better to just leave it be and walk away with your head up high. I'm going to be a coward again. I'll run away from the pain again, like so many other times.



It's only me that's thinking this hard. It's only me that's thinking about these feeling's. Both parties need to come together to make this work, right? For now on, I will love only me, myself, and I. Nobody is going to get a piece of me now. From now on, I'll be the one breaking the hearts. And I wouldn't care. I'll learn how to be heartless again. I'll learn how to play the games again. I'll learn how to be the puppet master. I'll do things for me, and only me. Sex? It's not going to be such a big deal anymore. It's the norm to do it with anybody and everybody, right? Going to let all the dirty thoughts hang loose. Going to become as snobbish as possible? Let's hide that soft side, or toughen it up. I feel like cutting myself..but I love my body too much to do that. Let's be as perverse as possible. Be the good'ole American badass. That stereotype will be fun. Pro USA everything. Don't question the government. All about the illegal drugs, foreign girls make for even better girlfriends or bootycalls. I'll throw myself around, it'll feel better. I'm in the dilemma of deleting everybody off of my friends list except for blood family. I think it'll help.



New phone number as well.



Anybody who wants to meet up is crazy. No-no. Never going to happen. Not weird enough to make that happen. Talking about it is cool, actually meeting up is a no. Those sad songs? Not worth it. I'm a soldier, I ride alone, I stand alone, I fight alone, I deal with problems..Alone. I choose MY method to handling things. No regrets. Whatever I do...I'm going 100% into it. Right? Right. No turning back.



No stalking. No being emotionally attached. No telling people how you feel. No showing pictures.....? No giving your heart out to anybody, EVER. Get used to getting played, and expect for the worse. That's how I'll live life. Expect to get your trust betrayed, expect for anybody and everybody to come after you, expect everybody to be haters, expect everybody to keep on hating. Expect to be attacked directly, expect to get hurt.



Expect that "someone" to do more than talk to her ex. Expect that "someone" to be sneaking around. Expect that "someone" to be with somebody behind your back. Expect that "someone" to be shady.



My hearts cold...It'll preserve now. It'll stop wasting energy now. Nobody deserves to know how you feel. Nobody deserves to be loved by you. Your too good for everybody. You pick people to be friends, when their use is gone, you throw them away like the trash. You stomp on them like dirt. You make them feel the most unimaginable pain that you can possibly accomplish. I swear, it'll feel good.


Swallow your conscience, and be a real man. That's what it's all about to be a man. No regrets. Be selfish. Keep people on leashes until they are no longer callled for.



Life is going to get better starting tomorrow. I assure you that.


I'll keep you posted. I won't leave you hanging...I promise. Cross my heart and hope to die. That's the best I can give you. Za 3.0 is going to be wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy better now....


I can't wait..To start breaking hearts. I can't wait to lose their trust. I can't wait for them to see how heartless I can get. I can't wait for them to see how much pain I can inflict...It's going to be hell on Earth.



That Za, is long gone now. Thanks for killing him. It saved a lot of work and time.



Let's see how interesting my next post will be, eh? Back to being ruthless. wink



I'm looking forward to it...It's going to feel soooo good...





Stay tuned for the next one..Tomorrow? Maybe. The day after tomorrow? Maybe. Next week? Maybe. All I know..Is that I'm going to love every single moment of it..No wonder she kept saying that phrase, it was meant for him. ;]


I'm not stupid...Do I look stupid?



I'm typing too much.


Byebye.. twisted